Day 1

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I woke up around noon and it has been about 12 hours since my last oxycodone dose. I am ok so far. I just have the familiar sadness, slight depression and boredom. My anxiety is not bad yet and will hold off taking a xanax until as late as possible.

I know in a few days I will be ok. I am really going to try to focus on the positive thoughts. I also have a bit of a chest cold. This is probably due to the gunk from not smoking working its way out. I put on a patch this morning and I am fine with it.
 
Well about 16 hours in and the usual has started. I am really trying to get negative thoughts out of my head, but it's hard. It's the usual I am a failure, and I will never feel normal again. I know these are only temporary as I have been down this road before, but nonetheless, they still permeate my psyche.

I have taken .25mgs of xanax to just take the edge off until later tonight when I can take it and try to get the elusive sleep. Day 1, I think, is always the worst for me. It is because you know what is to come and the anticipation can be overwhelming. Even though day 2 is horrendous, at least I know I am in the thick of it and have Day 1 under my belt. Usually on day 3, I start to see the light, even though I still feel awful.

I am trucking away and I am determined to get through this. Of course, I have zero appetite. The one good thing is I have zilch desire to smoke.
 
Have you read the Thomas recipe? The L-tyrosene helps and watching mindless comedy films helps with the blahhhs and depression. I have been down the same road. And am on day 26. Have you cut off your supplier? That was key for me. It made me feel good about myself and more confident that I would get off and stay off the percs. I have a blog if you haven't seen it, check it out. Be proud of yourself for how far you have come. And keep posting.
 
Good job on Day 1 and I hope to hear from you on that day when you start to feel great!! Sincerely, searchin
 
I'm on about day 13 (opiates and booze) and the hot and cold sweats left after about 10 days. I figured the depression would last for a long time but with the help of praying, lot's of exercise, and provigil I am starting to feel pretty good without. My outlook on life is way better and I don't think about suicide anymore.:)

Probably the hardest part will be with what to do in the evenings and especially the weekenRAB when I would normally get a buzz. Also, I don't sleep as well but that is to be expected.

Hope you all are coping alright and overcoming your demons. Personally, I'd rather be bored than being a slave to the evil stuff and hope this time the sobriety lasts. Never has before but maybe this time........Norton
 
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