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I have a problem with alcohol. I do not drink daily but I do binge drink. The blackouts are starting to happen more frequently. I am scared for my health and safety. Alcohol causes massive panic attacks after I drink. I am only 26 and am worried that I may not make it through the next episode. I am sick of worrying about what I may have done while drinking. Alcoholism runs in my family and I know it was a contributing factor to my aunt's death at a young age. Like everyone else I have experienced tragedies that have shaped me. I did not start drinking heavy until my best friend was killed in a car accident. That was 6 years ago. I used to drink to nurab the pain but now it's just a social thing. I have battled with anxiety for years now and also depression in the past couple of years. The alcohol makes that worse. I have a good job, family, and frienRAB but I still feel the pit of despair and being lonely. I know I am able to go out and socialize without drinking. I have no problem going to bars and lounges and not drinking. Last night is going to be the last time that I drank. I am so sad and nervous. It took me 8 hours to get out of bed today. Today is a new day and a new beginning. August 1, 2010