Day #1 no vicodin. HELP!

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So, I'm starting my third day without any vicodin. I can't believe I made it through the first two. I slept so good last night. Better than I have in months! My back is a little achey, but not bad. I don't have a craving yet, but by afternoon I'm sure they will be back. I'm going to stay as busy as I can! I still have 60 vicodin sitting at a pharmacy to be picked up. I still have this evil little voice in my head telling me to keep them "just in case" My husband wants to get them and flush them. I know I should, but what if? Is that stupid?
 
Going to try to get some sleep. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for me that tomorrow is a better day! Pray I fight this demon with a little more courage and strength tomorrow. Thanks for listening guys! Goodnight!
 
mustanggirl,
Well, you made it through day 5! How are you feeling? I think you're on the right path and you know what you need to do. It's just not always easy to do on your own. Keep posting here, it's great therapy!
You say you really don't want to go to an inpatient rehab. Have you thought about an Outpatient program? You can check with your local hospital or mental health agency to see if there is one in your area. This kind of program should not interfere with work or family. The one I went to lasted 3 weeks and had day or evening classes. It consisted of group therapy and classes on all aspects of addiction. This is where I was introduced to NA. I really didn't want to get involved in that, but someone from my class came with me the first few times so I didn't have to go alone.
Is your appt with a new doc or the one who has been prescribing the vicodin? Whoever it is, be honest. Tell them about your problem. This doesn't mean you'll never get the pills if you absolutely need them. They just won't dish them out like candy (as my former doc did).
I just want you to know how proud I am of you. You can do this, one day at a time!
You're in my thoughts and prayers :angel:
Kitty
 
Please Please do yourself a favor, flush the vicodin. I know it is easier said than done but I know it is lurking in your mind and it will help if you don't have immediate access to them. You seem to be doing real well. Day 6 is great and it does get easier. The mental aspects of it are very difficult, but they do get better. Through my research and talking to doctors, your brain can reset and you can get the natural endorphins running again in your mind. It does take time but it is comforting to know that it will all come back. So Please....have your husband pick up the refill and flush them. It will be a weight off your shoulders.
 
I made it through day #1. Can't believe I did! I thought I was dying! I woke up this morning feeling really good. My biggest issue is I can't stop thinking about it. My back hurts, but it is tolerable. My hanRAB are shaky, my mouth is dry, and I can't sit still. But I just wish the thoughts of wanting the vicodin would go away! I am doing this on my own, with the support of my husband. No medication to help me through withdrawl. I can handle the physical part, but I want the craving to go away!
 
Just chiming in to tell you that you are doing a great job. Day by day, you're winning!
 
Thanks again Kitty! Your posts have helped me get through this tremendously! I know I need to flush them. I picked up the phone today, called the pharmacy, then hung up when they answered. Durab! I know! But at the time I was sitting at home not doing a whole lot. And my back starting to hurt once again. So I got up, went on a walk, ran some erranRAB, had a playdate with my kiRAB, went out to dinner, came home and I am ready for bed! I'm getting there. Its hard to say goodbye to them. Rotton little devils that they are! See you guys tomorrow.
 
Hi:wave: Good job!! Is it that you dont want to have anything for the cravings? I know how hard it is and your pretty strong to do it without anything to help through everything!! I had to take suboxone to help me out after getting off the vicodin after years off taking it for many hernia's, and back problems. Good luck and keep up the good work :D

Sue
 
GREAT!!! DONT get it!! If you feel great then leave it be!! Keep busy and dont think about it and you will be just fine:D Do you have kiRAB or animals?? I found that my 2 kiRAB and 2 dogs helped me alot and kept me busy!! Hope you stick through it and stay strong!! BTW, I LOVE MUSTANGS!!!
 
If you really want to get clean and stay clean, you gotta flush those babies and you need to tell that doctor that you are addicted to vicodin and not to give you anymore. And tell any pain mgmt doc the same. Just do it. You are playing a game and you won't win til you have no way to get the pills. And tramadol/ultrams are addictive too just so you know. I didn't know until I checked on this board and it's not even considered a narcotic. I have chronic pain too. I called the doc today and was honest about it and told them not to give me anymore. I feel so free and relieved and proud of myself. It was so hard to do in the past and I kept relapsing because i would give in and get the refills. I was so worried that I would need them for my pain and i didn't want to not have any access for pain relief. I am tapering now, I don't have to go cold turkey. I have a blog. keep up the good work and take that next step. If i can do it, you can too. And you will feel really good about yourself.
 
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