okay. recently... me and my boyfriend have been going through a rough patch. we'll have been together 4 months next friday. just over 3 weeks ago, he was having a really hard time at home. but that just made us stronger. it was still obviously really hard for him though... then a week after that, i found out a lot about his past. and i didn't deal with that in the best way like i did the family thing. i know i didn't, but i apologised and i'm cool with it all now. and all this week. when everything should be okay again. i can't seem to shake this bad feeling.. and at first i thought it was him.. i thought there was something wrong with him. part of me still thinks there is but he's not bee acting weirdly. he's been completely fine. i think there's something still bothering me :/ but i dunno... i think it's because i'm such an insecure person. i don't like to admit it, but i really am. and i need reassuring again and again that everything's okay. he still tells me that he loves me every day. but he's never really just sat me down and said "i promise everything's okay" and i think that's what i need to hear.... but it's not like i can tell him to say it. because it won't have the same meaning.. and i'm sick of having to have long talks with him. they don't sink in. :/ bleh. what is wrong with me!? it's making me really unhappy 
sorry this was long... >.<
sorry this was long... >.<