Christine J
New member
bit of a sob story, extreme verbal abuse as a child, very bad stuttering during junior high.
belonged to pretty radical church, worked about 12 hours a day for 8 years, completely miserable during this time because of personal problems which were never solved. Gave up. Got into heavy drinking for many years, quit about 10 years ago. Same personal problems, will not elaborate here,
but felt I was going to hell for what I could not quit doing. At 45 did not have many good job prospects. Found work at call center. Lasted two years. Sweat shop. Job actually gave me a heart attack. Left that job, had 20 grand in bank. Could not find any other work here than another even worse call center. I actually feared going to work because of the stress. Got work delivering pizza,
not as bad, did it for 3 years. Here I am nearing 60 delivering pizza, so any work is honorable. Have great difficulty with personal relationships. Just too bummed out. I'm not stupid, am fairly competent, honest and trustworthy. Job problems are not the big deal, only a symptom of a deeper issue, which I have only recently began to find some resolution.
The biggest issue I see is just being really really bummed out. To the point of not being able to function. This is more than clinical depression. Basically just a very very unhappy life and when you try try try and nothing ever seems to work out you just seem to lose hope and energy. You just get through the day. I'm not blaming anyone. There have been decisions I could have made which would have improved things greatly. Have been in pretty bad physical pain from stomach problems for 15 years or so on top of all that. I just had my gall bladder out and am taking lortab for that.
My feeling on this issue is that at this time if I had a million bucks, a great spouse, good physical health etc. that my ingrained negativity, stress, and just general bad mood would not improve. People become damaged after so much. I know life is hard for everyone, but there are extremes. Some people can overcome extreme hardship some people can't.
At my age, 60, becoming addicted to something would not be that big a deal. My health is not all that good and I haven't got that many years left anyway. I've got lots of problems, but not that many more than anyone else. The one that is killing me is the continual bad, bad mood. If I could get that lifted off a bit I think the other stuff would work out.
I've seen decent opiates given where there is very little impairment in function or wakefulness. I would greatly appreciate some physicians opinions on this issue. I do know that some doctors do prescribe opiates "off label" for this.
to n_glow
Amphetamines, you've gotta be kidding. Very high stress levels are part of the problem. Opiates are downers, I am concerned a bit about the "I don't care" attitude. At the proper dosage they very effectively elevate mood without making you very tired.
belonged to pretty radical church, worked about 12 hours a day for 8 years, completely miserable during this time because of personal problems which were never solved. Gave up. Got into heavy drinking for many years, quit about 10 years ago. Same personal problems, will not elaborate here,
but felt I was going to hell for what I could not quit doing. At 45 did not have many good job prospects. Found work at call center. Lasted two years. Sweat shop. Job actually gave me a heart attack. Left that job, had 20 grand in bank. Could not find any other work here than another even worse call center. I actually feared going to work because of the stress. Got work delivering pizza,
not as bad, did it for 3 years. Here I am nearing 60 delivering pizza, so any work is honorable. Have great difficulty with personal relationships. Just too bummed out. I'm not stupid, am fairly competent, honest and trustworthy. Job problems are not the big deal, only a symptom of a deeper issue, which I have only recently began to find some resolution.
The biggest issue I see is just being really really bummed out. To the point of not being able to function. This is more than clinical depression. Basically just a very very unhappy life and when you try try try and nothing ever seems to work out you just seem to lose hope and energy. You just get through the day. I'm not blaming anyone. There have been decisions I could have made which would have improved things greatly. Have been in pretty bad physical pain from stomach problems for 15 years or so on top of all that. I just had my gall bladder out and am taking lortab for that.
My feeling on this issue is that at this time if I had a million bucks, a great spouse, good physical health etc. that my ingrained negativity, stress, and just general bad mood would not improve. People become damaged after so much. I know life is hard for everyone, but there are extremes. Some people can overcome extreme hardship some people can't.
At my age, 60, becoming addicted to something would not be that big a deal. My health is not all that good and I haven't got that many years left anyway. I've got lots of problems, but not that many more than anyone else. The one that is killing me is the continual bad, bad mood. If I could get that lifted off a bit I think the other stuff would work out.
I've seen decent opiates given where there is very little impairment in function or wakefulness. I would greatly appreciate some physicians opinions on this issue. I do know that some doctors do prescribe opiates "off label" for this.
to n_glow
Amphetamines, you've gotta be kidding. Very high stress levels are part of the problem. Opiates are downers, I am concerned a bit about the "I don't care" attitude. At the proper dosage they very effectively elevate mood without making you very tired.