ninja hamsters
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Could I be bi-polar or just depressed? I've never sought professional help. I don't know if stages of "mania" can maybe be perceived (by the person w. bi-polar) as just a compulsion
Here is what I do that i think I might have this;
Can't fall asleep but when asleep I sleep forever
Nap throughout the day even w. 12hrs of sleep
Can't focus on important things
Anxiety when in public
Had to quit school because of anxiety/ being around people
Randomly rather happy
When I am happy; the smallest thing will INSTANTLY trigger depression
I eat maybe once a day and its half a meal or rather half a sandwich- as I dont eat "meals"
I think I exercise my Mania in these ways; Extreme cleaning - its not so much a compulsion as i once thought as a need to just move do something, clean something, rearrange, organize, wash all my clothes even though they are clean, organize all my clothes, organize anything, go through random boxes, randomly throw away things I once felt I should keep
When depressed- I often have some thoughts of suicide- but I know better as I am a victim of suicide (my step-dad),I just dont care, i am lonely, dont leave my room for days even weeks , rarely talk to anyone if i do its on the phone and only my best friend, fear human contact during this time as i fear people will see i am depressed, and other typically depression issues
Also, I think it is rapid-cycling bipolar disorder because I am more depressed than manic and it is not monthly but weekly and even daily. Sometimes even hourly- such as- I will wake up feeling great and everything is fine. than, I get urges to wash all my clothes and organize them, than someone will say something wrong/or even my cat will not come when called and I am Instantly depressed.
sorry this is so long!!
I ask on Y! Answers because- I am afraid to seek professional help. I will once I move- I swear! Right now, even at age 24, I can not go to get help because my mom will never understand or believe me. It's hard to explain.
Here is what I do that i think I might have this;
Can't fall asleep but when asleep I sleep forever
Nap throughout the day even w. 12hrs of sleep
Can't focus on important things
Anxiety when in public
Had to quit school because of anxiety/ being around people
Randomly rather happy
When I am happy; the smallest thing will INSTANTLY trigger depression
I eat maybe once a day and its half a meal or rather half a sandwich- as I dont eat "meals"
I think I exercise my Mania in these ways; Extreme cleaning - its not so much a compulsion as i once thought as a need to just move do something, clean something, rearrange, organize, wash all my clothes even though they are clean, organize all my clothes, organize anything, go through random boxes, randomly throw away things I once felt I should keep
When depressed- I often have some thoughts of suicide- but I know better as I am a victim of suicide (my step-dad),I just dont care, i am lonely, dont leave my room for days even weeks , rarely talk to anyone if i do its on the phone and only my best friend, fear human contact during this time as i fear people will see i am depressed, and other typically depression issues
Also, I think it is rapid-cycling bipolar disorder because I am more depressed than manic and it is not monthly but weekly and even daily. Sometimes even hourly- such as- I will wake up feeling great and everything is fine. than, I get urges to wash all my clothes and organize them, than someone will say something wrong/or even my cat will not come when called and I am Instantly depressed.
sorry this is so long!!
I ask on Y! Answers because- I am afraid to seek professional help. I will once I move- I swear! Right now, even at age 24, I can not go to get help because my mom will never understand or believe me. It's hard to explain.