Confused about supposed 'Anxiety'?

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When I hear the world 'anxiety' I think of someone trerabling, sweating, pacing, heart racing...or someone who is talking a mile a minute about how stressed they are. I do not do or feel these things.

I have is constant thoughts in my head, I don't stop thinking. I am always thinking the worst case scenario as well. My mind dwells on the negative things in my life obsessively..it never shuts off. I seem to have the mind of a person with anxiety, but my body doesn't react to it.

One specific problem I have is socializing or being around people. I don't panic or freak out if I have to go somewhere...though I try to avoid going out whenever I can. If in public I just become very withdrawn and I think I experience either depersonalization/derealization. I feel calm..almost in a dream like state where I'm having a detached - out of body experience. It feels foggy and like I am not really there. People notice how 'odd' I look in public (when I thought it was all "in my head"..go figure).

I know this isn't normal. Aside from a few things that may happen to me that are shocking/scary and come out of nowhere.....I don't get nervous. I am always calm in my body. Is this still anxiety? Is it possible that rather than freaking out like people usually do with anxiety, that my anxiety shows up in another way? Like maybe somehow I have desensitized myself?
 
Alright I had to join up because of your post. Reading through it I was almost sure I had written it at some point. SounRAB like i've been experiancing the same thing, up to being detached. I would make any excuse possible to avoid going out and seeing people, even it it was something i planned and looked forward to. I've only experianced physical symptoms ie heartrate and all that once and that was at a new workplace trying to get out of my car into the building. My mind will always imagine the absolute worst case scenario for anything and out of no where I will be imagining arguments between myself and any random person I know about any topic. The only thing they ever have in common is they end very badly and result in grinding my teeth somewhat. This used to happen all day every day and I never even noticed it just became second nature until it got to the point where I was angry 24/7 from these fake arguments I created.

I've found something that does help. If i meditate for about 20-30 minutes there seems to be some sort of afterglow that will last about half a day and during that time I can notice these arguments/thoughts forming in my head and actually just dismiss them and have them go away after 2 or 3 tries. Without the meditation they just stay until it reaches the worst scenario and my mind makes up a new one 10mins later. I really hope you look into any simple meditation, even just counting your breaths because thats what made all the difference for me. Now it is still there but if I make sure i take time out to relax and really notice the root causes of my ideas these thoughts are a lot easier to get rid of. Anxiety isn't just sweating and shaking in the corners.
 
Thank you very much for the response.

I think I do have anxiety, and I think I know why I am always detached from my emotions at certain times. This may be the case with you as well.... From what I've read, I think my detaching from emotions is a sub conscious coping mechanism. I think my brain has somehow found a way for me to not get nervous when I have anxiety, but to detach my mind from my emotions. So I don't feel anything, rather than feeling extreme panic. Thanks for the advice I will try to follow it.
 
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