Few years back I was very confused about my sexuality, but after that I was very adamant about being straight. Since then I've had a few girlfriends, but always felt a sort of hollow satisfaction. Since then there have been a few times where I've met men, to whom I've been infatuated, but always pushed them away. Physically I'm actually about equally attracted to both, actually being slightly more attracted to women, but always felt as if I would be happier with a guy. Personality wise, I'm not flamboyant or feminine, rather average actually. So what can you make of this?