qwerty quirk
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I'm a 20 year old gal, and I've been with my first boyfriend for about six months, and throughout the entire relationship I've felt pretty uncomfortable (I've broken up with him already). Truth is, I don't think I've ever actually been THAT attracted to guys in general. I find them cute every once in a blue moon, but that's it. We had sex and whatnot, but I found myself not being sexually attracted to him. Also, I hated giving him blow jobs or even just touching his "junk" would gross me out. It wasn't that he was small down there because he wasn't at all - rather the complete opposite. In my mind it just didn't seem to turn me on, and at the same time it didn't feel right either. Even when he'd kiss me or hug me, I felt nothing. Anyways, so I'm wondering if I'm bisexual or a lesbian. Here's why... I've been attracted to the same sex since umm, about 7-ish years old?? I was a hardcore tomboy for most of my childhood, and only wore boys clothes. Then around 15 I started wearing girls clothes just so I could "fit in", not look like a sore thumb, and make my parents happy since they didn't like me wearing boys clothes. It was a very difficult time for me because I was made fun of a lot and often time mistaken for as a boy, that's also why I changed my appearance. I'm still a tomboy at 20 years of age, but it's a LOT less noticeable than before. My appearance may have changed drastically, but my feelings haven't. Around 2 or 3 years ago I had a best friend that was a girl. I was really attracted to her and I felt almost obsessed with her. Anyways... when she would simply touch my arm or give me a hug it would drive me crazy. I had a feeling she was either bisexual or a lesbian because she would say things to me sometimes that wouldn't come out of a "friend's" mouth. So after we graduated we sort of lost contact and I thought, "ok I'm fine now - that was just a faze". I forgot about everything and left it at that. That's when I got to college, met this guy, and dated him. Even though me and my best friend weren't really in an amorous relationship, I compare things, and my feelings for her were WAY more intense and different than when I was with that guy. I want to know...do you think that I am bisexual or a lesbian? Sorry I wrote so much... I just had to explain myself thoroughly so you people can understand where I'm coming from. I appreciate honest answers, thanks =D