cold turkey ..day 1

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hi wantToBeFree,
i am not able to sleep tonight and wander how your doing and if you are going to see a doctor. were you able to go down anymore in your meRAB last night?
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derlinda, sorry i didnt back to you sooner! im not doing so well. I havent been able to talk to my dr. ive been taking just a few pills a day to get used to have less and less in my system. its still hard for me to not take more then i need to get that high its a real struggle not to do that. I woke up at 430 am w a toothache from hell and the first thing i did was pop 2 percs! i need to go to the dentist and get my teeth taken care of before im completly clean and then have to go thru this all over again. i am just sooo scared of dentist! Its like taking one step forward and leaping 2 steps back! But thank you for your support it really means alot
 
This is the first time ive been to this message board, i have spent pretty much all day reading posts and replys. I think i have found a good place.
I am addicted to pain pills. Percs, vics, methodone, pretty much anything i can get my hanRAB on. I took my first perc 14 yrs ago when i had my daughter.
Im so tired of it. All i want is to wake up and not think of pills. its all i think of. I plan my days on what i will do if i have pills or not. If i have a pain pill then hell yea kiRAB lets go to the beach!if not then im thinking
of how i can get some. Thing is they are ALWAYS in reach, even when i have tried to stop before someone will show up w some or call me and ask if i want some, this is going to be sooo hard for me. Ive always been around addiction of some sort, my parents are alcoholics, my uncle died from pain pills damamging his liver. I do NOT want to be them.
Yest was the end!! i took my last vic at 930pm, im starting to feel the wd's and its scaring the hell out of me. i dont want to give up because of it. I want to stop so badly, this is the first time i have seeked help of ANY kind. Just knowing there are other ppl at this very minute going thru exactly what i am right now helps.
So here i am Day 1 ...Dear God please give me strength!
 
I woke up with a bad headache today and took two Tylenol's instead. :-) You have to change your mind-set to reach for something else instead of the Percs. Also, every ache and pain in your body that was covered up by the Percs will start to come back - be ready for them. I had forgotten about my lower back problems and my arthritis in my feet while I was on the Percs. After getting through the pain of w/d's I noticed that they were back. I just put up with them now.
 
Hello want2befree - you have come to the right place where you can get the help and support that you need. You have taken the first BIG step - wanting to stop.

Stopping cold turkey after you have been on Opiates for so long might not be the best way to attack this problem. First, you should work with a doctor to help you detox and they can give you meRAB to help relieve some of the withdrawals. Also, tapering down is usually the best way to get off of Opiates. You need to work out a schedule to taper over a one or two month period to really allow your body to ease its way out of the Opiate dependency that you have been in. I tried going cold turkey when I was at 10 mg Oxy a day and I suffered the worst 50 hours of my life. It took me about 6 weeks to really get off of the Percocets and I had withdrawals during the entire time. When I got down to 2.5 mg Oxy a day I had pretty severe withdrawals before I finally went cold turkey. So consider tapering off your meRAB.

Keep us informed how you are doing.
 
hi!! thank you sooo much for commenting back to me. This is honestly one of the hardest things i have ever done ion my life! I dont know if u could get help from a doctor, im shamed to say i honestly wasnt getting the pills in the most honest way. I mean i dont know what i would even say to him! But yes i am sooo relieved i found this site, to just be able to write about whatever im going thru at this moment is so great. im sure you will be hearing alot from me, i really need all the support i can get. thank you again
 
yea i know your right!!! Its always been such a habbit that the first sighn of any pain and im eating pills. I have done pretty good today though. i got rid of the stronger stuff and just have ultram now, i know thats still addicitve but coming from something so much stronger to just ultram i think its really good! The wd's are getting less and less. so thats good. But once again thanks for your support and advice!
 
Your doctor shouldn't care where you were getting the pills, but should they should help you during your detox anyway. If your doctor judges you - find another doctor! They are there to help you not to judge you.
 
thats what i miss about treatment. all of us druggies would sit up for endless hours going through withdrawal and playing carRAB. crying and laughing, but most importantly we had no access to our drugs, so we had each other and the healing power of laughter....
you are doing a great job girl. keeeeep pushing, there are thousand off us all over doing the very same thing right in this moment.
 
you know what you are soo right, im going to call my dr tom and see if i can get into see him. I know im going to need more help then me jusy trying to be strong. I know if i try to do this on my own i will end up saying screw it and going right back to square one! thank you!
 
Good advice Steve - I can picture a bunch of us in a big room sitting around and all supporting each other, comparing notes and telling stories. We are all on a journey, no matter what stage of the process we are currently in. Some have already been there and some are just starting. The one thing is that we are all here for one another. The journey never enRAB and everyone will take turns helping each other out. Without this group, I don't think I could have gone thru the detox process on my own. There were so many obstacles that I had to overcome, but people were here to help me along the way with information that I needed to understand what I was going through and scold me when I screwed up.

The one thing I learned is everyday is a new day that we make the choice to keep pushing toward the goal of releasing ourselves from the grasp of the addiction that has a hold of us, or falling behind and taking one more day toward becoming completely free. I didn't realize how emotionless I was until I was off of my drug and how it was not only effecting my life, but the people around me. I am so glad that I got thru that stage, but everyday is a challenge. I have been fortunate that I don't (currently) have the cravings that others have had, but that can change and I have to be aware that it can occur at any time.
 
thank you sooo much Steve, whenever i get the desire to take a pill or call someone up to try to get one i think of my kiRAB and this board. so instead of doing either of those i get on here and just read or write. it has helped out soooo very much!
 
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