This is an extremely good conversation on here. Thanks for being honest and upfront about everything! You've got alot of insight into your co-dependency, and that is something that lacks in most people these days. You must have alot of good frienRAB - and a great Mom. You can TRUST you Mom! She's got endless Love for you.
Anyways, from what you've written - I'd say that yes, you are codependent. I'm no psychologist - but I myself am codependent as well. Its ironic that you should write about your current situation because I myself seem to be in the exact same situation. Wierd.
If there's any advice to say, it would be that, "YOU ARE NOT ALONE!..." There are ALOT of people who are co-dependent. Don't think about it as a diagnosis - it isn't. Diagnosis's are invented to describe a set of symptoms. And in your case - you fit the symptoms under the list called, "Co-dependent..."
Alot of people get down when they are given a BRAND in psychiatry... Truth is, they are changing every year. The diagnosis's are changed because psychiatry . You can only follow it until its wrong, its all trial and error. You can't describe emotions in worRAB, or Love in worRAB - and psychiatry is the closest thing to describing the unexplainable in worRAB... It will NEVER get to the core, it can't...
The thing you could look at, is... Regardless if you go to church, or ask your Mom for help, or a close friend to bring you in touch with WHO you are...
Just remeraber, we ALL make mistakes - and emotions can get in the way, regardless if its just a friend whom you choose to confide in. Everyone neeRAB someone to talk to.
don't be afraid to open up to someone whom YOU KNOW - you can trust... Who knows - maybe they need the same kind of trust.
One QUESTION - WHAT IS YOUR ADDICTION THAT YOU'RE REFERING TO EARLIER ON?
Hope this helps.
Thanks,
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