just need to talk!
every1 of my mates know that i am bi-curious, and as far as i know all my friends are hetero and hate anything gay!
they make me feel really small and worthless! and i was at a party my m8s birthday tonight and i just left earlier because all they do is make me insecure paranoid and ashamed, like for example tonight we were all havin a drink about 15 of us and watching t.v then sum 1 flicked the gay channel on and were saying phooor i love men me any1 else here love men just stuff like that all the time. So iv just came home earlie had to leave.
Its like i dont want to be around them anymore, every time im with them i just want to be back home im not even gay just curious not like i have ever even been with a man or would want to its just a bit of porn, im not camp in anyway.
im 19 by the way and most of my mates are same age and older. I have grown up with these people i live in a small village so its not as easy as saying get lost im gtin new friends. some times i wish it was. i have come to terms that i am bi-curious just thy dnt seem to have.
just really depressed
every1 of my mates know that i am bi-curious, and as far as i know all my friends are hetero and hate anything gay!
they make me feel really small and worthless! and i was at a party my m8s birthday tonight and i just left earlier because all they do is make me insecure paranoid and ashamed, like for example tonight we were all havin a drink about 15 of us and watching t.v then sum 1 flicked the gay channel on and were saying phooor i love men me any1 else here love men just stuff like that all the time. So iv just came home earlie had to leave.
Its like i dont want to be around them anymore, every time im with them i just want to be back home im not even gay just curious not like i have ever even been with a man or would want to its just a bit of porn, im not camp in anyway.
im 19 by the way and most of my mates are same age and older. I have grown up with these people i live in a small village so its not as easy as saying get lost im gtin new friends. some times i wish it was. i have come to terms that i am bi-curious just thy dnt seem to have.
just really depressed