Can;t take much more of this..........

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Hey there, day three and this is the worst... Ususally this waking up not being able to move and almost crawling to the bathroom and holding onto walls is usually only after a very active day and usually only does this one or two days at the most. I didn't do much of anything yesterday except go to see my sis in the hospital. I am so depressed yet not and have to get a few things done now that it's Monday. I get so many answers and yet still so many unanswered as to why my back does this and my foot and toes hurt so bad. I have been doing so good lately and have been ignoring so long. I have been glad to take on the responsisbility of my sis as to keep busy and keep my mind of this as much as possible but i guess my body is telling me to slow down maybe, i don't know. I know life will go on just need support and now that everyone probably thinks i'm crazier with some of my posts i don't care this is real i live it everyday just like anyone else and i am strong and with support i know i can go on. And ontop og everything my kitten died ugh. I am a cat lover and this keeps me going as well, but gets me down when i lose one.
Monkey
 
Sue, the Neurosurgeon at one time stated that i have very very mild stenosis and at the time about a year ago said didn't need surgery and sent me on my way.
Update today: I had to go find my teenage son he took off on me long story, now i cannot walk on my left leg, horrible pain really thought it couldn't get worse, it's really confusing me how my back could be so mild and the pain be so bad in my leg and foot, big toe keps feeling like something stabbing me. I am so worn out from this, my sis is going to be so mad at me, i can't even walk to go see her and i would push if i could push but i do not have the strenght to fight today.
Love, Monkey
 
Maybe it is possible that your mild stenosis isnt so mild anymore? Sure sounRAB like it could be stenosis causing all that. I read that the big toe can also be affected.
 
Hey Monkey! I'm sure nobody here thinks your crazy! Life in general is a challenge, and those of us on this board have added challenges. Its very hard going through what we go through. Most people think that if they can't see an injury, or if you still try to take some pride in your appearance, well then heck, there isn't anything wrong with you. And yes, I do think something, or someone is trying to tell you to take care of yourself. I am still trying to implant that thought fully into my brain. I too am sick and tired of feeling like this, but we have to try to keep strong. Its good for us to be able to let off some steam to people who truly understand. I give you credit for doing that. I too wonder if it is stenosis. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF! Kathy
 
Kathy and everyone thanks so much for the kind worRAB. I hope the spine clinic at the University can figure this out i am just worried i guess that they are going to say like i said you need to do psychical therapy and i am going to get recorRAB that i have done that as well and the recorRAB stating that i followed through and got no better and it only aggrevated things. I pushed myself to do what needed to be done and not run my life but it is so hard. I can barely walk today because of the walking to find my son yesterday(yes he grounded again) The problem is that i don't excersice basically other that being active everyday and when i did the walking did it not only aggrevate my bad side and make my toes go nurab ect. it made theother leg weak because it's not used to that kind of torture to it lol(have to keep humor in this somewhere) But everyone around me keeps saying stuff about the dr. saying something to the sort that i mentally cannot help that my brain is converting and making it worse but everyone says well how can you make your toes curl under how can your brain make you be deformed like that and then when asked one day about it my aunt said the same thing as everyone else her leg and foot did the same thing when her back was messsed up. So i know something is up and yes like i said before i agree that you can make more out of things than it should or can be but when your toes are deformeding unconsiously how does that work. Even when my mind is free of thought i will just look down not even knowing and my toes will be curled under when my back is bad. Okay i have rarabled but it's hard to not know where this spine appt. is going and what the outcome will be. Take care to everyone of you and stay strong no matter what dr.s say!
Love, Monkey
 
(((((hugs Monkey))))))
I am sorry for the loss of your kitten! I have several cats at home and they keep me such good company when I am hurting. I understand your sadness.

My whole back/sciatica started with a stabbing pain on the top of my foot by my big toe. That was it. No other symptoms. By the time they MRI'd me I had two discs pretty well gone at L4-S1 and lots of compression on my sciatic nerve. It did move up to my leg and back(the pain) before my surgery.

I hope you get answers soon!! What medications are you taking? Are you icing your back when you sit or lay down? Use crushed ice or a bag of frozen peas or corn of you don't have an ice pack but it really helps. Ice, not heat. Its probably not a muscle so heat won't help you as much as ice.

I am praying for you today Spiney Sister!!!!
Blessings,
Michelle :angel:
 
Michelle, thanks for the hugs! I am taking Lyrica and vicodin. when i started the lyrica they started me on a low dose and then just recently increased to see if it helps and didn't make me too sleepy. It's not makeing me too sleepy but yet it's not working ithier. In the past i have tried ice and heat. I also take a flexeral at night and this isn't helping that i feel ithier. I have to be careful what i take for my back and leg pain because i have to take care of the kiddo and can't be all zorabie out even though that sounRAB good at the moment! I as well hope i get somewhere with this spine appt. At least a little to why this and that and i know they might not have any answers for me at the time but, but i can stay hopeful! Tonight when i can relax i will try the ice again. I am on the go constantly and have no choice as my kiRAB have issues with adhd and i have been tending to my sisters neeRAB as well. And she DD and doesn't understand a whole lot so i make it a commitment to keep tabs on her so she doesn't go back to the hospital but there comes a time when i have to just take a day to recoop and gather my thoughts and take time for me! Wich is far and few in between! My hubby works and is very supportive and caring now but he has to work, so can only help after! My pain ithier started in my hip or back. I am not sure wich but i looked back at all my recorRAB and my complaint was the hip and hen the lower back after my car accident and then slowly i have gotten worse. I am not sure whats going on but i know something, i just sorta try to keep busy so i don't think about it! Take care, sorry so long!
Melissa
 
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