I am 18, and do not really want to get married, ever. But, I feel like I need to because I want to become a politician someday and politicians are usually married. I want to become a politician because I want to serve this country and to make a name for myself. I am sexually attracted to girls, but I feel as if I don't really deserve to have sex, even though I really want to have sex some time. I have some contempt for women because I believe they are only attracted to men if they have money like I do; it's not like one of those crappy romance stories in reality. I have had several girls tell me I am attractive before, including one of my female friends, who admitted to me that she wanted to have sex with me, but was afraid to tell me. Also, if I had a choice between money or getting married, I would choose the money, even though I am already pretty wealthy. I talk to a select few girls and otherwise, I only talk to intelligent and cultured white males like myself; not because I am gay, as I have contempt for most men (especially simpleton rednecks), along with most women, but I am an aristocratic person. It is in my ancestry, so I feel like I need to play the part. I don't care if people call me an elitist, because I am one. It doesn't mean I am mean to everyone, it means I only keep to my kind.
I think I am sexually repressed, but I don't know if I want to change that. My problem is that I don't want to have a girl I am having sex with to laugh at me for some odd reason, even though I am in good shape and have an above average sized penis. I just don't want to be bad my first time
I think I am sexually repressed, but I don't know if I want to change that. My problem is that I don't want to have a girl I am having sex with to laugh at me for some odd reason, even though I am in good shape and have an above average sized penis. I just don't want to be bad my first time