Building your own prison

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LegiTeamObstruxion

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You ever felt like you put yourself in your own prison... I've been to prison for 2 years, got out, straightend up, found myself a good girl, got a decent job, and now... I've lost it all... Found out my "good girl" was goin behind my back, Then I fell back into old ways showed up to work high as a kite and lost my job... I can't deal with stress, I wasn't taught to.. I've lost my money, my mother, my mind... I can't comprehend the pain and I just find myself awake all hours of the night trying to make sense of how all this happend. I've come to the conclusion that sometimes god creates people like me to set an example for those who are destined to become something better. My life, my actions, my beliefs are out of my control. I say I will do something but I can't stand up and do what is right... I've become a slave to cocaine... No car, no job, no nothing... People like me are supposed to get into trouble. We are supposed to amount to nothing, be unhappy. I'm lost in the catacombs of my own prison....

:gun: :sad:
 
dude i hear yah. everything seems so good when you have a girl. you start planing for the future, and shit like that. but one day, everything fkcing changes, and your girls gone. your left wondering wtf. i did the same thing you did. i went back to my old ways to, same as you. i cant keep doing this shit though. gotta stop some time, or end up in jail or the welfare line.
 
I hate to say it buddy, but you need to find your own way out. Suck it up. Deal. Life is hard, it is supposed to be. You should see a doctor about getting some medication for depression and anxiety. You need to learn to be who you want to be, nobody else can do that for you.

By saying "People like me are supposed to get into trouble" you are just perpetuating your own cycle. I am one of few in my family that has never been to prison/jail. Because I dont fall for that pity me bullshit. I am stronger than that, you are stronger than that, you just keep giving yourself an excuse not to be.
 
well! by the looks of things, i'd say you've had a good fuckin dose of shit in your life. so i think dustinzgirl shouldn't be saying jack about suckin it up! i mean, hell ya, you're gonna have to deal with it and move on, but you've obviously done that before, and it's a lot harder when you've hit rock bottom than when you've just scraped your knee. hell, there's people like you who've fallen into a bottomless pit... but they've still gotten back up amazingly enough. but it took a lot of time, a lot of effort and determination.
i know there's a lot of women out there who fuck things over beyond repute. im friends with a few guys who have gotten their heart shredded by pompous little pricks who come off as something incredible, then morph into this fucking beast. it's absolute bullshit, and they come to realize that eventually, no matter how much they think that woman meant to them.
i don't pity you, feel sorry for you, or any of that shit. because there's tons of people who have gone through the same, if not worse shit in their lives. but i do understand, and i do want to let you know that you make your own decisions. i'm not very good at decisions myself and i just recently got arrested for shoplifting i didn't even do... but that's another story. the point is, i learned from it. i know i'm still gonna make a shit load of other mistakes, if that's what you choose to call them. but hell, i think the more mistakes you make, and the worse it gets, the better it can become. but still, go about it on your own pace, or change your pace completely and become a different, perhaps better person.
 
dude, it's very simple.

1. quite the drugs.
2. get a job.

1. = clear your head and all your shitty thoughts about how or why.
2. = social contact. be someone, talk to people. contribute.

go from there, nothing more, nothing less. :thumbsup:
 
I sometimes have feelings like you describe, but not of the same magnitude. I probably can't relate to what you are going through, but I can give you support. Your life might seem like its going nowhere right now, but there is always another side to things. Women can be harsh sometimes and it sucks, but thats life. I'm sure there are people on this site that are willing to give you advice on women to avoid. I'm not saying in any way that you aren't good with women I'm just saying that maybe a few tips on which ones you should avoid would be good advice. As far as the drugs go seeking help from a clinic or something would be a good idea using more drugs to help with depression and such would be the last thing I would suggest. Talking about it and working it out is always A good way to deal with a bad situation. I hope everything works out for you and I hope I gave you some helpful insight to your problem.

:)
 
Yeahp..I know that feelin all to well my friend....

My prison is marrige and the kids are the cell guards..lmao

j/j but yea man some people would call that life..it is what you make it.

Just hang in there... :thumbsup:
 
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