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YULEISH
Guest
I have been in a long term exhausting and desperate financial situation. Years of being broke --- so broke that every single time I spend money on myself it takes away from my budget ---- therefore intertwined with guilt, anger, and resentment. I am talking 10 years of not being able to buy myself a new bra without a problem.
I don't know anymore if counseling is worth the expense I am paying. Even with a sliding scale fee -- the money that I spend on it --- versus other things I could do that I really want/need --- feels so frustrating...I feel like I am damned if I do -- and damned if I don't.
Is constantly denying myself any spending money --- or money for clothes, decent food, or bascially any expenditure worth it? I wonder if the financial stress and resentment that I feel for having to pay for this is making my life better or worse?
I plan on discussing it with my counselor but I am just wondering what others think. I spoke to my husband and he basically told me that it was up to me. My friend thinks I am crazy. Its 35 per session for me --- sliding scale and 65 for marriage counseling. Last month I spent 170. It just seems unreal in this economy.
I have no family and just a few friends -- who don't live close, so my real issue is that I don't have a good support system -- - and yet I feel like its unfair that I have to pay and sacrifice other things....how much longer do I have to sacrifice the rest of my life for my wounded childhood?!!!
Am I even doing the right thing anymore?
Thank you.
after waiting 2 months on a waiting list for the "free counseling" in my city -- I had to find a sliding scale clinic...my insurance only reimburses 50%. Whats the piont of being reimbursed 50% of 35 dollars after I have reached a 500 dollar deductable. I wont' even reach it this year.
I don't know anymore if counseling is worth the expense I am paying. Even with a sliding scale fee -- the money that I spend on it --- versus other things I could do that I really want/need --- feels so frustrating...I feel like I am damned if I do -- and damned if I don't.
Is constantly denying myself any spending money --- or money for clothes, decent food, or bascially any expenditure worth it? I wonder if the financial stress and resentment that I feel for having to pay for this is making my life better or worse?
I plan on discussing it with my counselor but I am just wondering what others think. I spoke to my husband and he basically told me that it was up to me. My friend thinks I am crazy. Its 35 per session for me --- sliding scale and 65 for marriage counseling. Last month I spent 170. It just seems unreal in this economy.
I have no family and just a few friends -- who don't live close, so my real issue is that I don't have a good support system -- - and yet I feel like its unfair that I have to pay and sacrifice other things....how much longer do I have to sacrifice the rest of my life for my wounded childhood?!!!
Am I even doing the right thing anymore?
Thank you.
after waiting 2 months on a waiting list for the "free counseling" in my city -- I had to find a sliding scale clinic...my insurance only reimburses 50%. Whats the piont of being reimbursed 50% of 35 dollars after I have reached a 500 dollar deductable. I wont' even reach it this year.