As a child i was beaten and yelled at a lot , how do i get over it and put it behind me ?

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throughout my life i have been beaten for "bad behavior" yelled and talked at. When it came down to a point when they tried to talk it out with me it was as if i didn't have a voice . My opinion didn't matter and everything i said was overridden and when i would say an answer they didn't like i was scolded even harder. The beatings i would get were excruciating , imagine a 5'10 African american 350 lbs or more standing over you hitting you with a leather belt or an orange extension cord or anything that they(he) thought would make you see it there way faster. Whelps as thick as the belt left all over the front and back of my legs to the point where it was painful to sit , bruises burns and blisters ... sounds painful right . My mother , mad at the world would always fuss at me whenever she got mad at my father or had a bad day at work or just was unhappy . This became the daily routine. Ive been arrested and put on probation for possession of drug paraphernalia , i smoke herb and the have found out and are going to put me out when i turn 18. The yelling stills happens the beatings not as much but there is great distance between myself and my parents because of my childhood . So most times if im not getting water or cleaning we don't talk.i almost forgot to mention that my parents broke up when iwas 8 years old. im sure it dosent need to be said that i was always stuck in the middle . Scrutinized by them because i am much to like them for them to stand it if you understand. ill be 18 soon and finally be able to get far away im going to move south but how do i reverse the effects of what has happened in my past? please help me