Aren't their feelings/ actions that a person can't control after a

[Alexa?]

traumatizing event such as attempted rape? You always hear things like "if you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change" or that "nothing is as big as you make it seem", all of which imply that everything is only as bad as you make it seem. I'm asking this question because as hard as I try, controlling my feelings is impossible. I was attacked by a stranger and almost raped 7 months ago. I can't imagine how badly I'd feel if I actually was raped. I got away but fingered me and hit me and kissed me. And all I can do is feel so depressed and can't seem to be okay. I get flashbacks and nightmares and cry all the time because of it. I'm only 15 years old, and nobody except my best friend and old counselor know. I don't wanna vent to them always because I feel annoying. Telling my parents is not an option. How can I cope and control my feelings? Is this normal after so long?