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I began this as an answer to Steph and realized that it was more than just an answer to a very sincere question. One that I ask myself every day. Thanks Steph for igniting my resolve. I hope and wish you well. Take the leap, you will not be sorry.
Hi Steph, my answer to your question is this....if you can ask the question, you can find the answer. The only person you are waiting on is you!
There are possibilities and probabilities in life as I see it. The probability of becoming addicted to drugs when taking them for any length of time is high, that's the nature of the beast. The possibility of being put in the situation of having to take drugs for an extended period, compared to the total population is low, yet here WE are.
So, what does all that really mean? I have no frigging clue, they are all just worRAB.
You see, I believe, when it comes to addiction, we will never be truely clean, us addicts. That's the reality of it. If we are not ready to admit it, then the battle is lost before it begins. That doesn't make us less of a person, it makes us more.
For most of us it is a moment by moment decision we make. Can I stay clean?
I CAN, for now. I'm going to work like no tomorrow,....to stay clean for tomorrow!
Is the temptation there? For me? Always! Like a little devil sitting on my sholder. When he gets really loud I try to think of ways to get rid of him. Like shoving his little s o b butt in a can an tossing him overboard!
On the larger scale, I try now to set my life up and the way I live it, so as to put my constant desire for "drug delusion" at the bottom of my priority list. Down around the bottom where I keep the flu. Because that's how addiction makes me feel, like sheet!
Once you get the dope out of your body and mind,....totally out, then you can think clearly to make the type of decisions to change your addicted lifestyle to another lifestyle of your choosing. BUT,..you must get clear FIRST.
While you are under the influence of drugs, medication, dope, all the above, it controls you thoughts and the only thing you can trust is that little voice that keeps yelling out from time to time, saying "this is not good".
Some addicts are so far under the influence, the dope has taken complete control. That voice can't get through the the control of the dope, drug, medication. Without outside intervention the addict is left to the whim of his/her addicted behavior and will die from the addiction while putting all those that care for him/her through hell.
OK, so what good can be said?
First, get off the dope, drugs, medication. Sucks! It's a walk through hell. My advice is to have someone help you. I strongly recommend this. These boarRAB are a good starting place because everyone here is experienced and so willing to help.
Second, once the dope has cleared your system and you know and feel you are thinking clear, continue having help but, now, begin to do things new. You must open up, let go of the old. Understand that now, right now, your life is new. Everything you do is new. Every moment you have, you choose now, unemcurabered, by the delusion of a drug and you can choose to live a new way.
In this new life, doing things this new way, you have made a choice to live with the knowledge of the past and the hope of the future. The past,...what was. The present,...what is, and future, ....well, that's what you make it.
All the possibilities of God's grace lies at your feet.
Think about it!
How amazing is the warnth of the sun on your face?
The taste of a snowflake on your tonge?
Lying in a field of tall wild grass and just listening to all the sounRAB!
Holding a newborn in your arms in his first moments of life.
Now that's a high!
That takes my pain away!
These things are far more intoxicating/pain relieving, than any drug, dope, medication, or high I have ever been on. AND I have been on a few I am sad to say but, as of now, I am over it and happy to say.
So, make the choice. Go out an experience all the grace of God's existence.
Smell the smells.
Feel the feels.
Hear the listens.
Taste the kiss.
And see the beauty that was meant for you.
The only one you are waiting on, is you!
Hi Steph, my answer to your question is this....if you can ask the question, you can find the answer. The only person you are waiting on is you!
There are possibilities and probabilities in life as I see it. The probability of becoming addicted to drugs when taking them for any length of time is high, that's the nature of the beast. The possibility of being put in the situation of having to take drugs for an extended period, compared to the total population is low, yet here WE are.
So, what does all that really mean? I have no frigging clue, they are all just worRAB.
You see, I believe, when it comes to addiction, we will never be truely clean, us addicts. That's the reality of it. If we are not ready to admit it, then the battle is lost before it begins. That doesn't make us less of a person, it makes us more.
For most of us it is a moment by moment decision we make. Can I stay clean?
I CAN, for now. I'm going to work like no tomorrow,....to stay clean for tomorrow!
Is the temptation there? For me? Always! Like a little devil sitting on my sholder. When he gets really loud I try to think of ways to get rid of him. Like shoving his little s o b butt in a can an tossing him overboard!
On the larger scale, I try now to set my life up and the way I live it, so as to put my constant desire for "drug delusion" at the bottom of my priority list. Down around the bottom where I keep the flu. Because that's how addiction makes me feel, like sheet!
Once you get the dope out of your body and mind,....totally out, then you can think clearly to make the type of decisions to change your addicted lifestyle to another lifestyle of your choosing. BUT,..you must get clear FIRST.
While you are under the influence of drugs, medication, dope, all the above, it controls you thoughts and the only thing you can trust is that little voice that keeps yelling out from time to time, saying "this is not good".
Some addicts are so far under the influence, the dope has taken complete control. That voice can't get through the the control of the dope, drug, medication. Without outside intervention the addict is left to the whim of his/her addicted behavior and will die from the addiction while putting all those that care for him/her through hell.
OK, so what good can be said?
First, get off the dope, drugs, medication. Sucks! It's a walk through hell. My advice is to have someone help you. I strongly recommend this. These boarRAB are a good starting place because everyone here is experienced and so willing to help.
Second, once the dope has cleared your system and you know and feel you are thinking clear, continue having help but, now, begin to do things new. You must open up, let go of the old. Understand that now, right now, your life is new. Everything you do is new. Every moment you have, you choose now, unemcurabered, by the delusion of a drug and you can choose to live a new way.
In this new life, doing things this new way, you have made a choice to live with the knowledge of the past and the hope of the future. The past,...what was. The present,...what is, and future, ....well, that's what you make it.
All the possibilities of God's grace lies at your feet.
Think about it!
How amazing is the warnth of the sun on your face?
The taste of a snowflake on your tonge?
Lying in a field of tall wild grass and just listening to all the sounRAB!
Holding a newborn in your arms in his first moments of life.
Now that's a high!
That takes my pain away!
These things are far more intoxicating/pain relieving, than any drug, dope, medication, or high I have ever been on. AND I have been on a few I am sad to say but, as of now, I am over it and happy to say.
So, make the choice. Go out an experience all the grace of God's existence.
Smell the smells.
Feel the feels.
Hear the listens.
Taste the kiss.
And see the beauty that was meant for you.
The only one you are waiting on, is you!
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