Magical Lobsters
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I just feel a little...crazy, you know? I've had a pretty f*cked up childhood, so I wouldn't be surprised if I were friggen looney (Physical abuse, verbal abuse, parental negligence). Here are some things I do/think and whatnot:
-I get aggravated about the littlest things. I have a short attention span and a shorter temper. I'll drift off in class easily and I'll, say, play with the split ends of my hair. I'll try and split them completely just out of pure boredom but sometimes I can't split them and it drives me mad, just from something so little and stupid. Everything always has to have proper grammar/spelling (i.e. texts, Facebook statuses, etc.). My money always has to be in value order, with the faces facing the same way and none can be upside down. Stupid shit like that drives me crazy.
-I get very depressed/stressed a lot. It's come to a point that I think about suicide everyday. Sometimes I even self injure. I hate my school and classmates, but I hate my home and the verbal abuse, so I feel like I can never be happy. I feel trapped, like a dead astronaut in space.
-I'm very fearful of almost anything. Mostly, I'm fearful of being touch or yelled at. I don't like being too physically close to people because humans disgust me. I feel like I'm on a different level then people, whether it be better or worse. I can't withstand being yelled at, or just someone yelling in general. Even if I'm not being yelled at I tear up. It's mostly a hating anger kind of thing, which is why I get so sad when I get pissed because of my short temper.
-I talk to myself a lot. Where ever it be, I'll have a conversation with myself. Mostly it's just myself telling myself I'm an idiot or I'm crazy.
-I have no religions, nothing to believe in. I gave up on that crap in junior high. With nothing to believe in, I feel life is pointless and unnecessary, not just for me, but the whole human race. (Think about it, all we've done is destroy Earth.)
Are these all abnormal feelings/habits that teenagers have or am I just being dramatic?
I'm (forcably) attending a Catholic school (one reason I have a deep hatred for Christianity is my family) and my guidance conselor's a nun, I'm not touching that with a 50 f*cking foot pole. But thanks everyone so far for the answers, good to know I'm not psychoatic I suppose.
Forgot to ask this, but I assume it was sort of implied, I'm very detached from people, meaning I'm shy and there's no one I'm too close to. Sort of a loner, I guess.
-I get aggravated about the littlest things. I have a short attention span and a shorter temper. I'll drift off in class easily and I'll, say, play with the split ends of my hair. I'll try and split them completely just out of pure boredom but sometimes I can't split them and it drives me mad, just from something so little and stupid. Everything always has to have proper grammar/spelling (i.e. texts, Facebook statuses, etc.). My money always has to be in value order, with the faces facing the same way and none can be upside down. Stupid shit like that drives me crazy.
-I get very depressed/stressed a lot. It's come to a point that I think about suicide everyday. Sometimes I even self injure. I hate my school and classmates, but I hate my home and the verbal abuse, so I feel like I can never be happy. I feel trapped, like a dead astronaut in space.
-I'm very fearful of almost anything. Mostly, I'm fearful of being touch or yelled at. I don't like being too physically close to people because humans disgust me. I feel like I'm on a different level then people, whether it be better or worse. I can't withstand being yelled at, or just someone yelling in general. Even if I'm not being yelled at I tear up. It's mostly a hating anger kind of thing, which is why I get so sad when I get pissed because of my short temper.
-I talk to myself a lot. Where ever it be, I'll have a conversation with myself. Mostly it's just myself telling myself I'm an idiot or I'm crazy.
-I have no religions, nothing to believe in. I gave up on that crap in junior high. With nothing to believe in, I feel life is pointless and unnecessary, not just for me, but the whole human race. (Think about it, all we've done is destroy Earth.)
Are these all abnormal feelings/habits that teenagers have or am I just being dramatic?
I'm (forcably) attending a Catholic school (one reason I have a deep hatred for Christianity is my family) and my guidance conselor's a nun, I'm not touching that with a 50 f*cking foot pole. But thanks everyone so far for the answers, good to know I'm not psychoatic I suppose.
Forgot to ask this, but I assume it was sort of implied, I'm very detached from people, meaning I'm shy and there's no one I'm too close to. Sort of a loner, I guess.