beachmisses123
New member
Personally I don't enjoy therapists, they are a waste of my time and my life is a mess. Seems like people who were once close to me now don't understand my life, although I don't expect anyone to feel badly for me, I really do feel for myself that I have expected too much of others.
I have gotten so far deep into my own personal hole and the guy who I was in love with came with me and now he seems to be even more miserable than I am. I feel that I can't tell him this because it would onlym ake him more angry.
at the age of 24 and not having a father, feel like he skipped out of my life, and he talked about suicide often to me. Now that he is actually not in my life any more I feel lost without his closeness and the way that he would always make sure that things in my life were going well for me and that I would have shelter from the rain if I needed it. We had such a closeness it was probably his depression that brought him down the most.... as for me as soon as I started dating it has been one boyfriend after another, hoping that one will love me enough to stay with me, take care of me and someday want to marry me. Seems to be going quite the opposite way, people have said that I push them away, I don't know how or why I do this. I just wanna be me and see my life grow not keep falling apart. and I want a man who will keep his negative feelings out of our relationship, so I can have a future and live my dreams but as it is I just don't see that happening. Life has been so difficult, and I keep attracting bad situations. I don't want to be arrogant or anything, so reading a book may not help me. If you have any good advice though I would so much appreciate it.
I have gotten so far deep into my own personal hole and the guy who I was in love with came with me and now he seems to be even more miserable than I am. I feel that I can't tell him this because it would onlym ake him more angry.
at the age of 24 and not having a father, feel like he skipped out of my life, and he talked about suicide often to me. Now that he is actually not in my life any more I feel lost without his closeness and the way that he would always make sure that things in my life were going well for me and that I would have shelter from the rain if I needed it. We had such a closeness it was probably his depression that brought him down the most.... as for me as soon as I started dating it has been one boyfriend after another, hoping that one will love me enough to stay with me, take care of me and someday want to marry me. Seems to be going quite the opposite way, people have said that I push them away, I don't know how or why I do this. I just wanna be me and see my life grow not keep falling apart. and I want a man who will keep his negative feelings out of our relationship, so I can have a future and live my dreams but as it is I just don't see that happening. Life has been so difficult, and I keep attracting bad situations. I don't want to be arrogant or anything, so reading a book may not help me. If you have any good advice though I would so much appreciate it.