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SkiHill
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Hi.
I'm becoming worried and fed up of the condition I am in; though it doesn't seem like much can be diagnosed somehow. As I learned that even benign things could help diagnose a condition, I'll list all I can think of that generally affects me and doesn't seem to affect most of the people around me.
Head & Nervous System
Chronic headaches
For several years, my headaches have been becoming more numerous and more painful. I went from one painkiller to the other, now even extra strength tylenol won't make it go away. I often have to skip work, or leave to go home, as I can't stand them anymore. All I can do to calm the pain is thoroughly massage my head, and wear a very tight bandana. At times all I feel like doing is mashing my head against walls.
Mood shifts
I used to have intense, uncontrolled mood shifts. Anything could make me cry or laugh in an instant, regardless of the situation. I've been called fake often, as if I were trying to get others' attention, but I was actually trying to hide it. About 3 years ago, I noticed how bad it was and started working on it. I still have intense mood shifts, they're just not as visible anymore. I can easily reach despair and jump to over excitement back and forth, making stupid decisions in both cases. I've been medicated once, for a period of a few weeks, and stopped when my frienRAB made me notice how I stopped caring about everything. This new mood manifests itself very often now, and I don't feel like myself at all.
Anxiety and nervousness
I've always been extremely anxious and nervous about mostly everything. People would prank me because it was way too easy to startle me. I worry about too many unimportant things to the point where it takes over and I can't hear my own thoughts anymore. Since I've been medicated (the doctor said I had cyclothymia), it happens less often as I often enter an "I don't care" state, but when it's there it's just as bad. People often tell me to stop fidgeting around, I'm always moving my legs or playing with something because I'm too nervous.
Depression
Every year, at least once, for a period of weeks/months, I'll sink into depression. I'm more aware each time, and try more things to get out of it every time, but it's also harder every time. Not feeling like dressing up or eating, missing work, not wanting to see anyone, feeling completely useless as a human being. Usually this goes away when replaced by a huge emotional jump, such as having a sudden idea which sounRAB amazing and being extremely hyped for it, or just when I feel free and start believing in myself again.
Blocking from emotions
I feel like I loss the capacity of feeling emotions for myself through the past few years. I still kind of connect with others, feeling their emotions, but it's harder to feel my own now, I feel extremely disconnected. I don't feel like I like anyone anymore, I haven't cried in years, or expressed my anger or joy much. I still feel these emotions enough to know that I would be expressing them if I were in my normal state, but I can't anymore, other than anything intense and brief. I'll think I'm in love and forget about the person minutes later, or feel at the edge of crying but keeping a stern face. It doesn't feel right at all.
Loss of balance
I was born with the cord around my neck, causing a lack of oxygen to the cerebellum to which followed very weak balance. I'd walk into walls, fall on my face all the time as I had no reflexes either. Throughout the years, I practiced enough to have a very good balance and too prompt reflexes (I hit things that come at me and my knees block even if I'm trying to dive), but I still have these moments where I look like a clown swimming in the hallway to regain my balance.
Coherence loss
Often, and more often, I'd lose complete track of what I'm doing or saying. I'll go look for something, but end up in the wrong place, not knowing why I'm there. I'll talk to someone, and suddenly the worRAB that come out would be ones that don't link with the context at all, or the sentences would be in complete disorder. The same happens when chatting, at some point it seems like my fingers, instead of looking for the proper keys, count the syllables in the worRAB I'm trying to type and press random keys of the same amount. I'll often say things which I'm not sure why I did, or become inconsistent in my speech and contradict myself.
Insomnia
It seems to be chronic in my case, where I'll have big problems falling asleep normally. I'll usually be extremely bored, but too tired to do anything, and idle around. If I go to bed in that state, I toss and turn, get frustrated and try to chat with someone or do something. I haven't been getting much sleep recently; however I'll often fall asleep without noticing in the bus, in the subway, at work, or in other situations.
Sleep apnea
Some frienRAB talked to me about this. They all say the same: at night, I'll often completely cease breathing for a little while, and snore loudly as if I had trouble breathing. I do need to blow my nose every morning though.
Bones & Muscles
Muscle pain
I have constant muscle pain in my back, I took pills for a while (robaxacet) but stopped because their secondary effect (drowsiness) affected me too much. I need to stretch very often, and it's rarely enough to make me forget about it.
Sharp cramps
Every few months, I wake up to a sudden sharp cramp in my leg. Bouncing out of bed and trying to fold and unfold it while it seems almost impossible. Sometimes, but more rarely, it's in the arch of my foot. Also, since I'm a kid (less often now, but frequently when swimming), a toe will suddenly lower itself under the others, causing a very strange pain.
Articulation nurabness
I need to crack my wrists and fingers all the time. They often feel like I can't move them. the same happens with my knees, and the bones around my waist often click in and our when I move.
Eyes & Ears
Visual snow
For as long as I can remeraber, I've been seeing pixels, or static, like a TV on a wrong channel, of very bright (neon) colors. This is constant, and more observable against a uniform surface or when my eyes are closed. The GP, Optometrist and Ophthalmologist all said there was nothing wrong they could see when observing my eyes. Sometimes, if I hear something click in my body (often the result of an uncommon effort or stretching), I'll see some dots much more visible than the others detach and float around, much like the bright orange things that float from a campfire.
Light sensitivity
My eyes are very sensitive to light. I sometimes wear sunglasses while at the computer. When there's too much light (i.e. seeing the sun's reflection against the snow, the sun happening to be in front of my eyes while they're closed), upon reaching a normal-lit place I'll see an opaque green screen, and need to wait for it to go away. Also, I see the negative light very easily and fast, sometimes causing too many colors in my vision.
Shifting vision
My vision quickly degraded when I was about 8 years old. I started wearing glasses at 9, and by the time I was 14 I had very thick glasses. Since then, every time I go to the optometrist for a revision, I mention that removing my glasses often lessen the intensity of my headaches, and the exam results show that my glasses are now too strong for me. It's been 3 times now, can vision restore itself?
Auditive static
In a similar way to which I see the small dots all around, I'll sometimes hear what would sound like them. It's like a static sound in my head, sounding a bit like when you eat these candies which pop in your mouth, but sharper. I also often hear a sharp uniform noise like the sound of the microwave when it's ready but continuous. This one feels like it physically hurts in the ear.
Comprehension impairment
I have much trouble understanding people when they talk. Not that I don't hear them, I'll just either not understand, or catch something different. It often annoys people around me. Sometimes too, I'll ask the other to repeat, but understand what they were saying previously before they get to repeat, like lagged.
Mouth & Digestive System
Varying metabolism
I used to have an extremely fast metabolism. I weighted 75lbs at the age of 13. Being concerned of my skinny appearance, I started eating all the time, even when not hungry, more than I was hungry for. I reached 100 two years later, and stopped overeating; however I started being hungry all the time, to the point where the amount of what I ate would erabarass my frienRAB. I reached 120 the next year and 145 3 years later. Since then, my hunger kind of regulated itself, and I'll often be not hungry at all for a day or, again, be over hungry at times. My weight's moving between 150 and 160, which I'm cool with, but I'm afraid to suddenly double that since it looks like my metabolism slowed down.
Constipation
I used to be constipated as a kid. I recently included a lot of fibers in my food and it's much better, but every now and then it gets me back and hurts painfully.
Sugar and alcohol reaction
This again is something people told me before I could realize myself. When I eat something sweet, be it an ice cream cone, I'll be hyperactive. When I get coffee, I shake from everywhere and don't make much sense. When I drink alcohol, I pass out extremely easily. Someone told me I might have diabetes - I don't want to start worrying about these conditions before anything's diagnosed though, but it does worry me somewhat.
Gum pain and bleeding
My gums are really sore, and every time I brush my teeth, also often when I eat (not only apples but even bananas and sandwiches), I bleed.
Skin
Warts
I started having warts under my feet, which lasted a few years including diverse wart treatments. Leaving a band-aid for a few weeks returned my skin to its original state. There's a different one on my thigh which is half time very dry and half time like odd skin, it's pink and bleeRAB if I scratch it. Now this year I got one of my thurab which isn't going away, and I see dark brown speckles under my index skin which seem to want to evolve in another wart. What causes this and how do I stop it?
Dry skin
Recently my skin started drying. Under and around my feet, a lot of dry and dead skin. And now my hanRAB, one finger showed bubbles which ended up being dead skin, and the side of my other hand is started to peel as well.
Vibration and stinging sensation
Often, I'll feel like there's a cell phone vibrating in my pocket, even if I'm not wearing pants; it's my leg having a vibrating feeling. I also have these sensations like if a thousand needles were stinging me at random spots of my body but all concentrated, most often on my balls, my hanRAB or the sole of my feet.
Temperature sensitivity
I used to be fine in most temperatures. Recently, and increasingly every year, I'm more and more sensitive to temperatures, especially cold. At the beginning of fall I have my winter gear up and I'm still shivering when everyone seems fine in just sweaters, I'm fearing the approaching winter.
Libido variations
I'm often horny beyond what I'd want to be, and have devious thoughts featuring basically everyone around me, which are hard to fight although I know I wouldn't want to execute them anyways. It's kind of making me feeling extremely awkward when with other people. However, often after having sex with someone, I'll suddenly be completely disinterested. It's very weird to feel that way.
If any of this can help, I know my family on my mom's side has a history of depression and thyroid problems, and both sides have a variety of psychological issues.
At this point any help can be valuable, I just want to feel better.
Thanks a lot.
I'm becoming worried and fed up of the condition I am in; though it doesn't seem like much can be diagnosed somehow. As I learned that even benign things could help diagnose a condition, I'll list all I can think of that generally affects me and doesn't seem to affect most of the people around me.
Head & Nervous System
Chronic headaches
For several years, my headaches have been becoming more numerous and more painful. I went from one painkiller to the other, now even extra strength tylenol won't make it go away. I often have to skip work, or leave to go home, as I can't stand them anymore. All I can do to calm the pain is thoroughly massage my head, and wear a very tight bandana. At times all I feel like doing is mashing my head against walls.
Mood shifts
I used to have intense, uncontrolled mood shifts. Anything could make me cry or laugh in an instant, regardless of the situation. I've been called fake often, as if I were trying to get others' attention, but I was actually trying to hide it. About 3 years ago, I noticed how bad it was and started working on it. I still have intense mood shifts, they're just not as visible anymore. I can easily reach despair and jump to over excitement back and forth, making stupid decisions in both cases. I've been medicated once, for a period of a few weeks, and stopped when my frienRAB made me notice how I stopped caring about everything. This new mood manifests itself very often now, and I don't feel like myself at all.
Anxiety and nervousness
I've always been extremely anxious and nervous about mostly everything. People would prank me because it was way too easy to startle me. I worry about too many unimportant things to the point where it takes over and I can't hear my own thoughts anymore. Since I've been medicated (the doctor said I had cyclothymia), it happens less often as I often enter an "I don't care" state, but when it's there it's just as bad. People often tell me to stop fidgeting around, I'm always moving my legs or playing with something because I'm too nervous.
Depression
Every year, at least once, for a period of weeks/months, I'll sink into depression. I'm more aware each time, and try more things to get out of it every time, but it's also harder every time. Not feeling like dressing up or eating, missing work, not wanting to see anyone, feeling completely useless as a human being. Usually this goes away when replaced by a huge emotional jump, such as having a sudden idea which sounRAB amazing and being extremely hyped for it, or just when I feel free and start believing in myself again.
Blocking from emotions
I feel like I loss the capacity of feeling emotions for myself through the past few years. I still kind of connect with others, feeling their emotions, but it's harder to feel my own now, I feel extremely disconnected. I don't feel like I like anyone anymore, I haven't cried in years, or expressed my anger or joy much. I still feel these emotions enough to know that I would be expressing them if I were in my normal state, but I can't anymore, other than anything intense and brief. I'll think I'm in love and forget about the person minutes later, or feel at the edge of crying but keeping a stern face. It doesn't feel right at all.
Loss of balance
I was born with the cord around my neck, causing a lack of oxygen to the cerebellum to which followed very weak balance. I'd walk into walls, fall on my face all the time as I had no reflexes either. Throughout the years, I practiced enough to have a very good balance and too prompt reflexes (I hit things that come at me and my knees block even if I'm trying to dive), but I still have these moments where I look like a clown swimming in the hallway to regain my balance.
Coherence loss
Often, and more often, I'd lose complete track of what I'm doing or saying. I'll go look for something, but end up in the wrong place, not knowing why I'm there. I'll talk to someone, and suddenly the worRAB that come out would be ones that don't link with the context at all, or the sentences would be in complete disorder. The same happens when chatting, at some point it seems like my fingers, instead of looking for the proper keys, count the syllables in the worRAB I'm trying to type and press random keys of the same amount. I'll often say things which I'm not sure why I did, or become inconsistent in my speech and contradict myself.
Insomnia
It seems to be chronic in my case, where I'll have big problems falling asleep normally. I'll usually be extremely bored, but too tired to do anything, and idle around. If I go to bed in that state, I toss and turn, get frustrated and try to chat with someone or do something. I haven't been getting much sleep recently; however I'll often fall asleep without noticing in the bus, in the subway, at work, or in other situations.
Sleep apnea
Some frienRAB talked to me about this. They all say the same: at night, I'll often completely cease breathing for a little while, and snore loudly as if I had trouble breathing. I do need to blow my nose every morning though.
Bones & Muscles
Muscle pain
I have constant muscle pain in my back, I took pills for a while (robaxacet) but stopped because their secondary effect (drowsiness) affected me too much. I need to stretch very often, and it's rarely enough to make me forget about it.
Sharp cramps
Every few months, I wake up to a sudden sharp cramp in my leg. Bouncing out of bed and trying to fold and unfold it while it seems almost impossible. Sometimes, but more rarely, it's in the arch of my foot. Also, since I'm a kid (less often now, but frequently when swimming), a toe will suddenly lower itself under the others, causing a very strange pain.
Articulation nurabness
I need to crack my wrists and fingers all the time. They often feel like I can't move them. the same happens with my knees, and the bones around my waist often click in and our when I move.
Eyes & Ears
Visual snow
For as long as I can remeraber, I've been seeing pixels, or static, like a TV on a wrong channel, of very bright (neon) colors. This is constant, and more observable against a uniform surface or when my eyes are closed. The GP, Optometrist and Ophthalmologist all said there was nothing wrong they could see when observing my eyes. Sometimes, if I hear something click in my body (often the result of an uncommon effort or stretching), I'll see some dots much more visible than the others detach and float around, much like the bright orange things that float from a campfire.
Light sensitivity
My eyes are very sensitive to light. I sometimes wear sunglasses while at the computer. When there's too much light (i.e. seeing the sun's reflection against the snow, the sun happening to be in front of my eyes while they're closed), upon reaching a normal-lit place I'll see an opaque green screen, and need to wait for it to go away. Also, I see the negative light very easily and fast, sometimes causing too many colors in my vision.
Shifting vision
My vision quickly degraded when I was about 8 years old. I started wearing glasses at 9, and by the time I was 14 I had very thick glasses. Since then, every time I go to the optometrist for a revision, I mention that removing my glasses often lessen the intensity of my headaches, and the exam results show that my glasses are now too strong for me. It's been 3 times now, can vision restore itself?
Auditive static
In a similar way to which I see the small dots all around, I'll sometimes hear what would sound like them. It's like a static sound in my head, sounding a bit like when you eat these candies which pop in your mouth, but sharper. I also often hear a sharp uniform noise like the sound of the microwave when it's ready but continuous. This one feels like it physically hurts in the ear.
Comprehension impairment
I have much trouble understanding people when they talk. Not that I don't hear them, I'll just either not understand, or catch something different. It often annoys people around me. Sometimes too, I'll ask the other to repeat, but understand what they were saying previously before they get to repeat, like lagged.
Mouth & Digestive System
Varying metabolism
I used to have an extremely fast metabolism. I weighted 75lbs at the age of 13. Being concerned of my skinny appearance, I started eating all the time, even when not hungry, more than I was hungry for. I reached 100 two years later, and stopped overeating; however I started being hungry all the time, to the point where the amount of what I ate would erabarass my frienRAB. I reached 120 the next year and 145 3 years later. Since then, my hunger kind of regulated itself, and I'll often be not hungry at all for a day or, again, be over hungry at times. My weight's moving between 150 and 160, which I'm cool with, but I'm afraid to suddenly double that since it looks like my metabolism slowed down.
Constipation
I used to be constipated as a kid. I recently included a lot of fibers in my food and it's much better, but every now and then it gets me back and hurts painfully.
Sugar and alcohol reaction
This again is something people told me before I could realize myself. When I eat something sweet, be it an ice cream cone, I'll be hyperactive. When I get coffee, I shake from everywhere and don't make much sense. When I drink alcohol, I pass out extremely easily. Someone told me I might have diabetes - I don't want to start worrying about these conditions before anything's diagnosed though, but it does worry me somewhat.
Gum pain and bleeding
My gums are really sore, and every time I brush my teeth, also often when I eat (not only apples but even bananas and sandwiches), I bleed.
Skin
Warts
I started having warts under my feet, which lasted a few years including diverse wart treatments. Leaving a band-aid for a few weeks returned my skin to its original state. There's a different one on my thigh which is half time very dry and half time like odd skin, it's pink and bleeRAB if I scratch it. Now this year I got one of my thurab which isn't going away, and I see dark brown speckles under my index skin which seem to want to evolve in another wart. What causes this and how do I stop it?
Dry skin
Recently my skin started drying. Under and around my feet, a lot of dry and dead skin. And now my hanRAB, one finger showed bubbles which ended up being dead skin, and the side of my other hand is started to peel as well.
Vibration and stinging sensation
Often, I'll feel like there's a cell phone vibrating in my pocket, even if I'm not wearing pants; it's my leg having a vibrating feeling. I also have these sensations like if a thousand needles were stinging me at random spots of my body but all concentrated, most often on my balls, my hanRAB or the sole of my feet.
Temperature sensitivity
I used to be fine in most temperatures. Recently, and increasingly every year, I'm more and more sensitive to temperatures, especially cold. At the beginning of fall I have my winter gear up and I'm still shivering when everyone seems fine in just sweaters, I'm fearing the approaching winter.
Libido variations
I'm often horny beyond what I'd want to be, and have devious thoughts featuring basically everyone around me, which are hard to fight although I know I wouldn't want to execute them anyways. It's kind of making me feeling extremely awkward when with other people. However, often after having sex with someone, I'll suddenly be completely disinterested. It's very weird to feel that way.
If any of this can help, I know my family on my mom's side has a history of depression and thyroid problems, and both sides have a variety of psychological issues.
At this point any help can be valuable, I just want to feel better.
Thanks a lot.