any1 else not give a fuck anymore??

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Heidi 4

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so heres my problem. i have no self respect anymore. ill prolly end up dying accidently. i dont try to kill myself but i dont really care if i do. its like everyday i just take out all my anger on myself. the worst is sunday when i took double the max dose in 24hrs of this medicine all at once, also negliecting the 'take a glass of water w/ each dose or may cause serious liver damage'. lol what do u know, my liver is in stabbing pain 2 days later still. its happened b4 and ill get over it. then theres slitting wrists, sucidal-type fun driving, not getting any sleep. yea i hope i'll get over this soon. the most ironic part is no one really knows and every1 thinks i have a perfect life cause it really would seem like i do if u didnt know. lol i really dont want to die tho. anyone else hate themselves this much?
 
Ok....reality check. I went through a "devil-may-care" phase a few years ago similar to yours. I was in a bad car accident (no, I wasn't driving :-} ) and essentially lost my whole life's plan up to that point. I felt like life was unfair, I felt worthless (no self respect), depressed, and I didn't care if the world came to an end. BUT...One person, in one moment changed my life. I won't get into the whole story, I know that isn't the info. you're looking for. Moral of the story: find someone, anyone that you trust, confide in them and let them help you. They can't fix everything, but you can "borrow" strength, as well as have a sturdy shoulder to lean on. Trust me...it's a long road to walk alone. I know it sounds cliche, but have hope...and realize that there are people who care. Afterall, you're someone to somebody even if you aren't someone to yourself.
 
I don't think I was invited to the pity party.. but since I'm here...
if you hate yourself.. figure out why you hate yourself.. then brainstorm Ideas to change the things that you hate... develop a plan from the best brainstormed ideas... impliment...

I understand this requires effort... so it may be too much..
 
k so the other day i was contemplating whether or not to stick a knife in my neck and got a new perspective on life. i was a lot happier and looking forward to the future, tuning everything bad out. then today i had to go to the fucking counselor and she keeps fucking reminding me how angry i should be and asking me how im coping with living in my house. and i told her im trying to move on with my life and i'll be outta there soon. she dwells on every little thing. i just try to get over it and forget about it. thankfully she doesnt want to see me again lol. but the bad news is that shes recommending family therapy, hopefully that doesnt happen. but ya i think things will be better now.

yep im ranting on, but u dont have to read it if u dont want fucker. :)
 
Well thats good you changed your outlook on life, keep it like that. Just don't let the lil' things piss you off, I do the same thing, the lil' things in everyday life really get me going, but don't let that happen to yourself.
 
It sucks sometimes when you stop caring about life. I was there a lot last year. I remember one knight I was walking with my friend and I looked ahead and there was a truck coming. I didn't move out of the way and it went around me. I turned to my friend and said, "Ya know, I wouldn't have really cared if that truck hit me." I have to agree with EMTPIXIE. If you can find one person that you can truly trust and confide in (note: this is a two way road, they have to trust you too) then things will begin to matter again. Life didnt matter for me, but then I found someone who I could talk to, and I was someone they could talk to, and things slowly began to get better. Now I am loving life and everythign is good...well some things are still fucked up, but now I realize that there is nothing I can do to change them and shouldn't spend my time worrying about them. Once you're outlook on life changes, then everything changes with it.
 
if you don't respect yourself, how the fuck do you expect anyone else to? The real irony here is that you think your are different. You sound like every other teenager on the planet struggling with an idenity crisis.
Here is a hint, stop doing what everyone else around thinks is kewl, do what makes you happy and tell everyone who does'nt like it to fuck off, and please drop the silent cry for help routine. That has been over done by nearly every Christian Slater or Johnny Depp Movie from the early 90's.
 
do you realize that 70% of suicide cases tell people?

even if this kid is just pitying himself. sometimes a little sympathy goes a long way

now as per the post: we all have shit that isnt right in our lives and im sure each of us get stressed out now and again. i know somebody up above told you to get a g/f and somebody else told you to find somebody to confide in. that may work, that may not. you know whats going to make you happy and you need to find out how to accomplish that. everyone has a way of dealing with being unhappy. some people write, some people scream, some people ignore it.

to the person that said find a g.f: if he doesnt respect himself how will he respect her and how will he expect her to respect him? i think he needs to find a bit of "self respect" before he even considers brining another person into his world. thats not really fair!
 
I gave up years ago. There are never any authentically angry people to talk to when I want to, just whiner posers. So since I can't relate to anyone I know, I gave up on everything because I just don't see a point in functioning normally anymore.
 
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