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tommy+casey4ever

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Yes I am going to wine about something, but I would like anyone who reads this post, and responds to do so honstly.

For some reason I have not been right lately. I am not sure how to explain it. It started in the smoke pit earler today. I went out there, and someone asked me about a job I was in the middle of. I started to tell him what was up, and someone cut me off. Neather of them paid me any mind what so ever.

So I tryed to shrugg it off and I went over and wound up sitting by myself. All I could think about was the fact that I am never trully involved in the world around me. I feel like I'm just extra. When I find my self at a party, I am just there. Should someone find themselvs board, or needing a hand, they turn to me.

I gess what I'm trying to express is that I have no idea what people think of me. Nothing about my life has changed recently, but for some reason, this has been getting under my skin.

Sorry about adding another thread to the life sucks forum, but I had to post something.
 
Where is my cheese? You cant have whine like this without some cheese.

Ok, sorry. I feel the same way a lot. Especially since I came to college and everyone just runs out and does something and I'm left here in my dorm all sad cuz they didn't even bother to ask me if I wanted to come. I don't know how to tell you to change it, but I can empathize. :hug2:
 
If you get some cheeze, let me have some.

I realy don't know why it has gotten to me like it has. I have always been the nice guy, so I'm used to this kinda thing.

I'll see how I feel tomaro.
 
Well, you guys can't rely on others to give you a life to live. You've got to make your own. If you sit around and do nothing, that's all you'll ever do. Especially in Mag's case. Go out, take walks, explore the campus. Go to the events, the free concerts, live shows, demonstrations by different departments... College is full of stuff to do, and not doing them and complaining about how there isn't anything to do because youd don't take advantage of what they do have is just a cop out.

But, like I said. You shouldn't expect someone else to live your life for you, that's why it's yours, because you're going to have to decide what you want to do and when. And when you do decide, fuck everyone else, and do it your way. Comprimising is ok, but don't give up on your decisions in favor of someons else. You guys don't really need other people to make your life better. YOU can make your own lives better, that's what the rest of the world is doing. Being selfish and doing something because you want to do it are two totally different things.

Mags: Everytime you have a rant, it's always about how you either did something for someone else, and it went unappreciated, or how you didn't even want to do it in the first place, but did it anyways. I always use the rule, "If the favor won't ever be repaid, will it at least be appreciated when it's performed?"

Helping people, "just because" is fine. But helping someone when: A: they dont' really need your help, and you're just going to be the fall guy/gal B: doing something that has no perk whatsoever for you, (financial, spiritual, or otherwise) is pointless. Even if someone gets mad at you for not helping them out of a jam. Just feel sorry that they don't realize that they put themselves in that jam. If they can't handle it it's not your fault you didn't help. It's their fault they didn't help themselves.

That may be alot of incoherent rambling, but ehh. I hope you get the point.
 
Back in my highschool days(yes everything with me goes back to high school. Please no Daria jokes as I've heard everyone of them) I often felt like an extra, an after thought. I was a shy person that just couldn't "fit in" with the world around me and those around me just seemed to make it worse. Until my last year there I could never make sense of it all. I just decided that rather then be content I wanted more from llife. I wanted the spotlight on me. I don't mean to plug books but I'm gonna. I came across The Satanic Bible by Anton LaVey and read throught taking it for what it was. Upon reading this book I realized a few things. It was all symbolism. The refrence to magic was actually empowerment. I don't believe in magic myself but something about that book just gave me a sense of what I needed to do in order to get what I want. Kinda like a motivation speech in a way.

I can't really offer more then a to read list sorry...
 
While sometimes it does suck not to be included, you can also look at it this way: It also gives you the freedom to pursue your own interests and do the things you want to do without having to answer to anybody or go along with their shitty plans. :happysad:
 
Isn't whine?

whine: To complain or protest in a childish fashion.

wine: A beverage made of the fermented juice of any of various kinds of grapes, usually containing from 10 to 15 percent alcohol by volume.

So which is it? :confused:
 
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