I have been depressed for 7 years, 8 once it goes to nov 2011. It doesnt help that i am gay. I hate how ugly i am, and how im becoming fat. I wish i could just starve myself, but food is sometimes the only thing that can make me happy alot of the times. I am not obese, but my parents bring me down alot because of how much of a loser i am. Additionally, i am terrified of driving, because my driving teacher ruined it for me, and i was the worst in that class. My parents constantly berate me for not being able to drive, but i am so afraid of it. Also I am very close to failing one of my classes, and if i do, i will seriously consider suicide, because i do want want to ******* repeat any more highschool, and have the shame of my parents wash over me.
Right now, i am kinda in a weird haze. I started Watching "United States of Tara" and i have become fixated with the character Marshall. He is cute, but not a flamboyant, queeny gay person. It gives me hope to see an average/nerdy gay person finding love. And i have become so attached to this character, that i literally have been watching the show all day for the past two days. I wish i could have someone who could love me, but i feel like i am incompatible with anyone, and will live forever alone. Does anyone know a movie or a story about a gay teen or person who is not flamboyant? I need some hope..
Right now, i am kinda in a weird haze. I started Watching "United States of Tara" and i have become fixated with the character Marshall. He is cute, but not a flamboyant, queeny gay person. It gives me hope to see an average/nerdy gay person finding love. And i have become so attached to this character, that i literally have been watching the show all day for the past two days. I wish i could have someone who could love me, but i feel like i am incompatible with anyone, and will live forever alone. Does anyone know a movie or a story about a gay teen or person who is not flamboyant? I need some hope..