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yomomma609
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Okay, I'm book smart and everything, I'm in all AP classes and I do pretty good, A's when I try my hardest, B's when I half-ass it, and maybe a C or two if I really mess up, but I NEVER fail. My mom wants me to become a doctor, but I really don't know if that would make me happy. I often get caught staring off, even in the middle of a conversation when I'm talking to someone, my brain will just stop and I won't be able to concentrate, then it'll take me a few seconds/minutes to get back. I've had this happen in person and on the phone, and also when I think, I'll think about one thing and say another, like if I plan on saying [sentence 1], by the time I start saying it, my brain is already thinking about [sentence 2] or [sentence 3]. Then, when I say it, stuff comes out mixed up. I'm a lot better at imagining stuff and being creative and things like that, rather than work work. I can still do good in school (easily), but I always feel like my brains on a different level. A lot of people at school think I'm just stupid because I can never pay attention in class and clown around a lot, but when it comes down to grades I do better than most of them, and on TAKS testing last year (the Texas standardized test) I missed like 1 question in each category, out of the 60 or so in each, and finished before anyone else, in about 2 hours.
Anyways, I don't know what to do. Am I just weird? I know I'm not supposed to be like this, right now it's 2:30 in the morning in my time zone, and I've been up since 6:30 in the morning, so 20 hours. My body is tired, but my brain keeps going. I close my eyes and I keep thinking, no matter how tired I am. I've stayed up all night before, just thinking. In class, I pay attention for 10-15 minutes, then I start drifting off. If I'm lucky, i can catch myself before I go too far and keep listening, but sometimes I'll zone out, force my self to come back, then just do it again, over and over again, class after class, day after day. I really want to do something with my life, but it's like no one believes I can except my mom, and it kills her to see the comments like "Does not pay attention in class" or "Does not perform to the best of his ability" on my report card, and sometimes even I believe i can't do anything. I've tried to change, I really have, and at this point I really don't know what to do. Can anyone help me out? Does anyone else ever feel like this?
P.S. Don't say anything about ADD or ADHD or anything, I talked to my doctor about it and he doesn't think I have it, but then again he doesn't really know me, but whatever.
Also, what careers would I be good at?
Anyways, I don't know what to do. Am I just weird? I know I'm not supposed to be like this, right now it's 2:30 in the morning in my time zone, and I've been up since 6:30 in the morning, so 20 hours. My body is tired, but my brain keeps going. I close my eyes and I keep thinking, no matter how tired I am. I've stayed up all night before, just thinking. In class, I pay attention for 10-15 minutes, then I start drifting off. If I'm lucky, i can catch myself before I go too far and keep listening, but sometimes I'll zone out, force my self to come back, then just do it again, over and over again, class after class, day after day. I really want to do something with my life, but it's like no one believes I can except my mom, and it kills her to see the comments like "Does not pay attention in class" or "Does not perform to the best of his ability" on my report card, and sometimes even I believe i can't do anything. I've tried to change, I really have, and at this point I really don't know what to do. Can anyone help me out? Does anyone else ever feel like this?
P.S. Don't say anything about ADD or ADHD or anything, I talked to my doctor about it and he doesn't think I have it, but then again he doesn't really know me, but whatever.
Also, what careers would I be good at?