For info you might try the ADHD board, bc it's usually prescribed for that reason. It's a stimulant, but for those with attention/hyperactivity issues (which is maybe what your doc has decided is part of your problem, but i would DEFINITELY ask him to discuss this with you, esp. with your past. I can't believe he didn't already.), it has an opposite reaction. My daughter is on a similar med, so i can't give you advice, just my own pers. experience (plus i'm a bookkeeper so anyone who came to me for doc advice would be in TROUBLE lol), but instead of hyping her up like speed would do for an 'unaffected' person (non-hyper, again, go to the other board for more info), it calms her and allows her to focus and go about daily tasks without disruption. if my daughter misses a dose, she is easily enraged, unable to make frienRAB or interact with other kiRAB on a 'normal' level can't get ANYTHING worthwhile accomplished with her classwork or at home, and of course, these things make her very depressed. Talk about a recipe for addiction later in life! BTW my daughter is 6 and i fought tooth and nail to not put her on meRAB. but they're working and i can't argue with that.
She (and i'm guessing from your posts and responses to them you as well) has an extremely high IQ, and now that she has the ability to focus, she's skipped a grade in math and reading (which we always knew she could) but MORE IMPORTANTLY she's joining team sports this summer and she can interact with other kiRAB and they like her and she likes them.
Didn't mean to turn this into a rant, but the ADHD drugs can be a goRABend if they're warranted and in the right hanRAB. they are also drugs of abuse (when my daughter first got prescribed ritalin short-acting meRAB and i was still using i abused them ALL). So you are walking a fine line and need to walk it very closely with a physician and pdoc knowledgable of your personal condition.
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