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llouis
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i'm not superstitious nor i try to rurable about things but i sometimes wonder if i was being cursed for bad skin for the rest of my life.
i'm 25 and acne has been with me for 11 years. it never seems to 'eventually fades away' like others do. some of my high school mates who used to have big bad acnes all recovered and they are looking so much better now. and here i am, struggling like i never struggle before.
maybe i was too concious about it and even a few times, there are people suggesting not to over-care it. yeah, that's what i did at the begining of my acne-years, and see how it did to my face. the uneven scarring was so deep that even until today i can still see them clearly.
if it's gotta do with gene, but why my parents dont have acne, or neither do my relatives. it's very shameful going to family reunion party and looking the worst every year. not to mention having everyone in the room keep on bringing up the issue whenever they see you!!duh, thanks for reminding me how bad my skin is, like i never look myself in the mirror every morning
i'm eating healthier than most people around me. i follow healthy regime carefully, exercise, do medical checkup twice a year, never drink, never smoke, never do drugs, never party late night, healthy sexlife and pretty much stay "normal" all the time, but my friend was like "then why you still have all those nasty things on your face?"
what the hell, i dont even know.
i've always heard people say "don't put your life on hold because of acne", and i'm trying everyday but it gets more painful to smile each day. in fact, i sometimes forget how to smile. once a person i know said i smile sadly and i do realised that too because i'm genuinely not happy inside.
acne really affect every area in my life. my manager havent give me a chance to be the presenter among customers and i know it's because of the appearance issue. i mean who wants to look at a pimply face for 30 min, not to mention having bright light spotted on that ugly stuff. admit it or not, people just dont feel pleasing and comfortable.
all this creams, pills and stuff that promise result always fail to deliver. it's frustrating. nevertheless, i still want to try, i dont care if it's costly or if the cream is made by bird pooh or the pill can make me sick or whatever, i just want the result!! and the result would be ACNE-FREE!!!
sorry guys for making it so long, but i've just been let down. see my derm guaranteed me my skin will be acne-free after i take on accutane for a prescribed time, because according to him, 95% of his patients achieved that result. so guess what i am the 5% remainder. i just been put on other drug called 'hostamycine' (what the hell i cant even find it on net) for trial. STUPID. i gotta get back to accutane but seriously i'm scared of the intial breakout again.
i'm 25 and acne has been with me for 11 years. it never seems to 'eventually fades away' like others do. some of my high school mates who used to have big bad acnes all recovered and they are looking so much better now. and here i am, struggling like i never struggle before.
maybe i was too concious about it and even a few times, there are people suggesting not to over-care it. yeah, that's what i did at the begining of my acne-years, and see how it did to my face. the uneven scarring was so deep that even until today i can still see them clearly.
if it's gotta do with gene, but why my parents dont have acne, or neither do my relatives. it's very shameful going to family reunion party and looking the worst every year. not to mention having everyone in the room keep on bringing up the issue whenever they see you!!duh, thanks for reminding me how bad my skin is, like i never look myself in the mirror every morning

i'm eating healthier than most people around me. i follow healthy regime carefully, exercise, do medical checkup twice a year, never drink, never smoke, never do drugs, never party late night, healthy sexlife and pretty much stay "normal" all the time, but my friend was like "then why you still have all those nasty things on your face?"


i've always heard people say "don't put your life on hold because of acne", and i'm trying everyday but it gets more painful to smile each day. in fact, i sometimes forget how to smile. once a person i know said i smile sadly and i do realised that too because i'm genuinely not happy inside.
acne really affect every area in my life. my manager havent give me a chance to be the presenter among customers and i know it's because of the appearance issue. i mean who wants to look at a pimply face for 30 min, not to mention having bright light spotted on that ugly stuff. admit it or not, people just dont feel pleasing and comfortable.
all this creams, pills and stuff that promise result always fail to deliver. it's frustrating. nevertheless, i still want to try, i dont care if it's costly or if the cream is made by bird pooh or the pill can make me sick or whatever, i just want the result!! and the result would be ACNE-FREE!!!
sorry guys for making it so long, but i've just been let down. see my derm guaranteed me my skin will be acne-free after i take on accutane for a prescribed time, because according to him, 95% of his patients achieved that result. so guess what i am the 5% remainder. i just been put on other drug called 'hostamycine' (what the hell i cant even find it on net) for trial. STUPID. i gotta get back to accutane but seriously i'm scared of the intial breakout again.
