A young tramadol user...

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Sorry I haven't been on. Been very busy.
We had the baby on the 15th at 2:05 a.m. and we have been swamped with that. She is so precious and it's A LOT of work some nights, but so worth it. Having a child taught me even more about love. I cried during delivery. I'm sorry...I couldn't hold it in.

I am also continuing the taper and it's going well.
A little craving to go back to old dose at times, but life is going fast and it's keeping me busy.
 
My posts keep being deleted becuase I keep breaking the rules.

So, I will just explain that I was an alcoholic and there was no weining off that drug!

Only swappy medications by a physician.

I have and have always had a panick disorder but was self medicating with alcohol and the medications provided by doctors for the condition.

I was trying to be superman on alcohol. I was addicted since childhood....

...You may have read my post on my experiences in hospital.

ie. There was a time there where my medication was being stolen so I was not permitted Govt. Authority of the medication.

But as I have only learnt last Oct, I didn't have to go through the hell of withdrawal from alprazolam as well as alcohol. It is available on private script just had to pay $15 more, but no doctor till the one I visited near my sisters homes was happy to inform me of that option.

I feel the were predjidiced against users of the medication as it is one of the most widely abused medications of late.- since my health was so poor and the doctor I had was conviced I was a substance abuser and my liver was in such poor condition due to contracting HepC when I did use amphetamines a feew years prior and that was in my medical history - there was no mercy, they wanted me off everything.

So I was only off the only thing I really needed to lead a normal life Xanax, and an antidepressants the issue is alcohol is so very bad for you...

Will post again....

My final note.
If you really need this medication, then that's a fact. If not. You should bite the bullet and get off it properly. In a hospital.
 
Just don't allow the disease to trick you into thinking the times back then were great and you should continue to stay on it. The disease will always take you back to the good times and make you forget the bad times or times you were in withdrawal. The disease will also take you back to the very first time that you used it because it wants you to chase that first high.

I am sure you are having thoughts in your head like, "man, I could experience that again" well forget it.

I do want to commend you because you are doing a great job at tapering. Now, finally giving your girlfriend the bottle was a very good thing on your part and something that neeRAB to continue to happen. Make sure you take her with you to fill the next script and hand it over. No going to get the prescription filled yourself and taking out a few that she won't notice. Heck, if you want to make it even better for yourself, tell her to count the pills after you get them filled to keep you on track. But please do take her with you to get the next script filled because that overwhelming desire to sneak a couple will be there.

Keep up the good work and keep us posted.

brian
 
Hey, guys.
I've considered anti-depressants considering tramadol acts like an SNRI.
Effexor seems to be the most "like-tramadol" anti-derpressant. I will consider this after finishing my taper. I have to yet start a taper, though. Just taking low doses so I don't have to go without until my next refill.

I'm happy to say that I didn't take anymore today although I was tempted at times. :cool: I just took some Benadryl (diphenhydramine) about 15 minutes ago. I wasn't withdrawaling or anything. I feel completely normal as a matter of fact. No withdrawal, and no buzz either. Maybe when I start actually tapering it won't be so bad. I went ahead and took some Benadryl because I know I won't sleep as well tonight since I only took 100mg of tramadol at 11 a.m. I'm used to taking 150-175mg throughout the day. I always take extra to keep the high stabalized. Got a slight high when the 100mg kicked in earlier today...but it didn't sustain since I didn't take anymore. Proud of myself for atleast not taking anymore. I'll probably go back to my usual doses when I get my 90 tablets next Wednesday. Still going to talk to doctor about tapering when he gets back in town. I promise you that. I'm ready to get clean. Never thought I would be this addicted to a drug at 21 yrs old.

Also hoping the Benadryl will help with some of this nausea. I have no idea where nausea came from. I never get it from tramadol or during tramadol withdrawal. The Benadryl seems to be taking action because I'm feeling a little drowsy. I HATE drugs that make me drowsy...especially benzos. But it's very useful for sleep.
 
Well, before I set up an appt to discuss tapering, I'm going to try this cold-turkey one last time. I'm going to try my hardest. I'm really ready to free. I started at a very young age (15 yrs old), and I am still young (21 yrs old), but it's still going to be hard to let go.

Wish me luck on cold-turkey. I'm going to attempt tomorrow.
 
I know it seems scary but just keep going!!! You can do this.

You have some much life left to live.... So much and it will be much more enjoyable being drug free and not having to depend on planning around a bottle of pills!

We are here for you!! Keep going!
 
Hey there!

There is NOTHING wrong with tapering. That is what I had to do to make my plan successful.

You have made the right decision to quit! I know it's not easy!!! Keep going! You can do it!

You will be kept in my prayers!!!
 
I am addicted to Xanax but need it for my panick disorder. It is extremely effective for me. Everyone I have offered a pill fall asleep on it. Not doing that anymore as people theve them. The addiction is like alcohol. Shakes in the morning until morning dose. I recommend anything else that will help you and Xanax on occassion OK!
 
i have been off ultram for over a week now and i am staring to feel human gain. i really took it slow. i lied allot and told people i had the flu but in the end it got better. I GOT REALLY SICK during my tapering but i read everyday about peoples ultram withdrawal and it gave me the hope i needed and the strength to flush those last 45 pills down the toilet. i did use a small amount of a mussel relax-or for the first 4 nights but i was very careful with that. dont do it alone but trust me your pain and mental state will be totaly back to normal in no time after your tapering is complete. thousanRAB of us did it and yu can to!!!
 
derlinda,

Please address the concerns of the original poster, and start a new thread for your own issues.

I have moved your post to a new thread:
"Need help"
 
Well, everyone. Thought the baby was being born last night! Went to the hospital and it turned out to be her ribcage from the wreck on Monday. She was in severe pain. She was crying and being a little mean to everyone lol. The doctor gave her Tylenol with codeine #3 to take orally on the spot. We were a little nervous about that, but after calling her obgyn, he said codeine was fine as long as it's short-term. She was also given a small prescription to take home. I hate seeing that girl in pain. It makes me want to cry lol. Imagine what labor will be like for me. Very emotional experience I'm guessing.

In tapering news - lowered my dose this morning and seems like I'm getting the hang of this. :wave:
 
I would say try to take your doses as evenly as possible throughout the day. I can't remeraber exactly where your dose is at and what type of the day you take it. I know that you can get a pill splitter and half the pill and then you can more evenly taper down. This helped me out quite a bit.

Also the supplementation with an anti-depressant was key for me because the depression just got to be too much. I knew that I was going to end up needing one since I suffered with severe depression before I even started taking Ultram. Good luck and that is my advice.

brian
 
Thanks for the bright worRAB, guys.
This will really make you proud....

You all know I prefer tramadol over other opioiRAB like hydrocodone, but I do like to substitute with hydrocodone on occasion, usually for just a day or two. Well, I was putting my guitar in the guitar case and found three 7.5mg hydrocodone pills. They've probably been there for awhile. I was tempted to save them and use them today instead of taking tramadol, 'cause I do like hydrocodone...just not as much as tramadol, but I like to switch it up sometimes. Well, an hour after I found the hydrocodone tablets I flushed them. :cool:

My tapering with tramadol is still going smooth also. It's a little hard in the evenings....I'm usually not in withdrawal, but can tell that I need just "a little more" to sustain the high, but with my girlfriend guarding them my willpower is getting stronger. :wave:
 
Hi

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Thank you for the quick reply, reachout.
What opioiRAB were you using? Just curious.​
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I started out on Vicodin about 12 years ago after radiation treatment left my skin burned pretty badly. The radiation also burned out my ovary (only had one) and sent me into menopause overnight. The immediate hormonal irabalance caused emotional screw-ups and the doctors put me on Xanax to help. I was really so ignorant about drugs and just took whatever was prescribed. After the radiation, I had a couple of huge surgeries and was put on Percocet for pain. I was on that for years, but the doses kept being increased as haapens on opaites to get the same results. I also used Duragesic patches ( had no idea then how powerful those are!). For a period of time I was on Morphine but really hated how I felt. So back to percocet. When I got up to 12-14 Percocet a day, there was concern about my liver so I was switched to straight Oxycodone. The Xanax had been a constant throughout all the years. WHen I finally understood what bad shape I was in and that I had crossed a line and was abusing the drugs, I began the tapers from Oxycodone first and then Xanax. I look back now and shake my head in disbelief at what I was using and the dosages.

I really understand the fear of not being on our drug anymore. I remeraber that it was hard to envision what my life would be like without them. That scared feeling passes as we get consumed in getting off. As I neared the end of the taper, I was actually truly looking forward to taking the last pill. It was hard beciause I got antsy for that day to come and it took a lot of discipline not to jump the gun. In the end, I just walked off the Oxycodone. The end of the Xanax taper was trickier... there was a period of days on, day off, days on, day off, etc. Then a day came when I just knew it was really over and that no more days on were needed. It was anti-climatic.... like the day after Christmas when all the packages have been opened, you know?

I guess telling you there is nothing to fear about not using is like trying to convince a scared kid that they will not drown in their swimming lessons. That kid is gonna be scared no matter how much assurance you give them. It isn't until they get out of the water still alive that they understand. Until that point, they have to take a leap of faith in the person reassuring them. Gues I am asking you to take a leap of faith here and believe that I tell you true that the fear will prove groundless.

Hope you have a good night.
With all hope
reach
 
Tapering still going well. I've had intense cravings to up the dose, especially early in the mornings.

The baby has been sleeping much better at night. We have to get up to feed her and maybe a diaper change every 3 hours, but she has let us sleep pretty well. She truly is a blessing. It was weird the first few days after bringing her home. It hit my girlfriend, too. She had the "baby blues" for a couple of days, but that has abated.


Things are going very well. Got our own apartment, and its very nice. And of course, our new baby girl. And it's all brought my girlfriend and I much closer. We will be getting married soon. I just want us to be a little more stable. A few financial problems here and there, but we are living decently for now. I know it'll get better, too. Makes you want to up the dose, doesn't it? I'm being very strong, though. And proud of myself. :wave:
 
I could give them to my girlfriend. She is very trustworthy and wants to see me off of the tramadol. Tapering is harder than I thought. I'm almost not ready to get off of crap, but with a daughter on the way that is my main inspiration. At moments I want this so bad...during others I can't imagine myself off of the tramadol. I suppose this is normal thinking of an addict since 2003.

NA meetings? Interesting. I'll check and see if there are any available in the area. Are they essentially confidential?
 
Too True Brianpain33.

I was an ICE addict! And originaly a meth addict a nuraber of years ago.

My frienRAB I live with and his family know my past so do my doctors, so I have much support if the gremlin (desire - memories of the high) come back! I talk to someone right away and go do something that will replace the adrenaline rush of the shot!

I sucked that I got hooked oon ICE at the time, I found it easy to get off the standard meth. but ICE is pure evil my first hit was an over dose and I nearly died it was not the feel good feeling - rush or sensual desire etc. you get on speed. After that I was having much smaller hits and just found myself having a habit....

...I had to go and visit a lady friend to detox from that shit! She got me clean, it took 1 month of alot of sleep and a month of walks etc.

I ended back on the meth because I couldn't sleep due to the exciting experience dreams I would have of having a good shot of meth. The lady I was with who helped me out og back on it too, and got paranoid and kicked me out.

I was on the street with no money, yet I use to have so much cash for reasons you might guess.

Anyways, I got myself clean from it by moving to the state I grew up in. My family took me back in - that is loved me again!

I am on all the perscriptions I need to live a 'dangerous drug' life.

They don't perscribe that anti-histamine you's have for anxiety here. But I will ask Doctor about that. Chemist said they havn'ty prescribed it here for 10years.

Am happy with my legal grug use guys, and that's cool with my GP's and shrink. So, all in all, try to avoid the memories of the high mate. Even hynotherapy to shut them out OK!

Take Care!!!:angel:
 
Well, reachout, and everyone else...the doctor is officially tapering me now.
I was taking 100mg on my own and he shot me back up to 125mg and is tapering from there very slowly. He also gave Xanax (alprazolam) for possible "tense" moments and possible sleeplessness, especially for when the dose gets lower in the future.

I was quite paranoid to mix the Xanax and Ultram at first, but apparently it is causing no problems. I pretty much never been attracted to benzos so my abusing them is a very low risk, but the doctor said to be careful because they can be addicting as well. Just took a low dose of alprazolam (0.5mg) about 15 minutes ago and it's already working. I was still feeling the tramadol, too and I feel a little lightheaded and drowsy, but it's keeping me from taking more tramadol. I'm doing a very good job in terms of willpower of the tapering off of the tramadol.

I'm very scared to see the result when tapering is complete, but that is in the future and I'm doing it one day at a time. :wave:
 
Hi

If you are going to try and go cold turkey, make sure you read the second post on this board titled, "Sample Home detox." It contains a lot of helpful suggestions for withdrawal. I wish you well for the hard task at hand. Stay close to the board throughout the withdrawal.

Best wishes
reach
 
Good for you, dude! Flushing is such a meaningful ritual. Remeraber on "Desperate Housewives" when Mike dumped his pills down the sink to show Teri Hatcher he was serious about quitting.....and as soon as she left the room, he was under the sink dismantling it to find them in the pipes. Addicts! Not likely to happen once they're flushed.

Glad you're back on track. I'm at the point now (in my taper) where I don't even get a high anymore.....just enough to stave off WRAB and feel somewhat normal. IMO, that's a good thing.....there won't be much to miss by the time I completely get off 'em.

Hang in there and have a great weekend!

Happy Independence Day USA!
 
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