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Hey all! I have made a few other posts on here before, but I fonally took the big steo and made the choice to go ahead with the suboxone clinic and get off the perks and H. Honestly, this is only my second day, but last night i slept so good, and woke up feeling like i actually had a nice refreshing sleep for the first time in 2 years, and woke up not feeling hung over! and all day today, i devoted it to me and my little girl, not the **** pills! I know its only the second day, but ya know, its two days of my life i got back, and it feels freat so far! I am so happy right now, a nicen leveled out, normal feeling happy! I know that gettingn off the suboxone is going to be tricky and a chore, but like i said on pervious posts, i plan on staying on this for about a year to straighten out all the other parts of my lfie for now, and when the time comes to get off the suboxone, i will deal with that when the time comes. but for now, i am enjoying the way i am feeling, the way my lufe doesn't revolve around a fix! i'll tell ya what though, i do cringe everytime i walk into my bathroom still, that was my "snorting post" for my oxy's and such..haha! there are so many things that i need to work on with my emotions and learn to deal with them sober, and i know i have a long road of recovery ahead of me, and its a fight im more than ready to deal with!
to anyone out there who is struggling with this disease, good luck to you, and i personally recommend the seboxone clinic!
 
shaqyeagle.....Good Luck to you....we are all here for you.

Take care

ANGELINMICHIGAN......Lyn
 
Hi Shayeagle, you sound great! Suboxone is doing what it is designed to do. You feel pretty good right now and you don't have that craving, counting, wondering, planning on the next time to medicate. Right now, what a great feeling. Finally a feeling of some control and a chance to do more with your life and time. Suboxone puts you there right now, it's amazing how it almost, for the time being, similates being straight. Erabace the relief now, for with it comes a real opportunity.
This is the best time to come up with a plan to start tapering down from the suboxone.
Because you are energized right now, your willpower up, that anxiety and apprehension of the next high gone, you can focus on a plan.
Let me tell you why I'm bring this up now. I'm not wishing to spoil the party. I know how you feel right now and it is great! I say again, erabrace that feeling, then get down to business so that you can feel that way for the rest of your life without any medication. And you can!
You see, from my experiences with suboxone, what soon happens after you have been on it for a while, and let me say again, from my experiences, you slowly begin those old habits again. Maybe the cravings aren't as bad, mentally. Definitely not physically, because you soon build up such an amount in your system, it takes a couple of days of not taking any before you begin to notice, you have a runny nose and you are beginning to feel like you have a cold. But, those old habits of counting your pills to see how long you have before your next presciption, did you take your med on time, can you travel without your new pills, the lack of a real appitite, the lack of real sustainable energy and that cloudiness in your mind returns, because the medication builRAB in your system and now the suboxone becomes something you have now just subsituted for the oxy. YOU are still medicating.
So.....I don't or I would wish you not to miss the opprortunity that suboxone gives you now. Which is to become clean and clear in a relitively short amount of time. Months, not years.
If I could suggest, write your plan on a calendar. Give yourself time to adjust to those things in your life that have to be accounted for. From what I have read, if you taper properly, you can very, really, reduce the agony of withdrawls significantly. ( I did not taper properly, became impatient and angry with the whole thing, and jumped off at 4mg a day, flushed a whole bottle, and said enough is enough! ha, an old family way of dealing with life's chosen screwups, !@#$ amusing now, I paid the price then, pure hell, glutton for punishment, not fair to the people around me that love and care for me but, that's one of the saddess things about dependency, it is so SELFISH and those around the addict have to pay a price, so many regrets.) Anyway, so many here on this board can help. It is a good place to be. Everyone is so very helpful and understanding. So, give some thought to a plan, good luck, many blessings.
 
hello there, i agree with subtrain. sub was wonderful for me the first few weeks, i felt great, then i could barely keep my eyes open when i took it. i told the doc, but he insisted that i keep taking it, he said up to a year. i couldn't take it any longer after nodding off while driving and quit at 4 mgs a day. it was tough, very tough, but i made it, over 4 weeks now. like subtrain said, take it for what it is worth right now, make a plan and follow it thru. you will know what is right for you and when the time comes to taper down. if you count on your doctor to taper he will stretch it out as long as he can as it is more money in his pocket. make the most of these feel good days. you deserve it. stay strong and be positive. you will get to where you want to be. amed
 
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