A new me.

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mtcharliegirl

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For the past months I have been depressed, down, annoyed, sad, suicidial, lost, broken, mad, mean, cynical and I always wondered why, why I was so sad, why the girl I liked was out of my reach, I hated god, I hated myself. Yesterday was a very bad day, and so was the day before that, and the day before that one, I think I have found what is amiss. I need to change, desperately infact, I need to realise what is important, and what is not, I can't hate myself, for the simple fact that I have to live with myself, I dont want to be alone, and by myself, I dont wan't to hate everyone. I need to find myself, I need to figure out who I am. I need to renew myself, I want to change, therefore I will, and I am. I need to find that group I fit into, and so far I haven't, though I thought I had. I thought my problem was that I lacked love, someone to hold my hand through my troubles, but that wasn't it. I need to find new friend's, a new group, a new existence. I will cast down my old skin and grow a new one, I want to be a different person, because the path I'm on now leads to destruction. Good bye March, Febuary, December, November, and all the other months that I have passed on the road of life, I take a new route, a new road. Hello April, May, June, July and the future.
 
Rock on Syrius... Syriusly!

No, but really I am going through a lot of the same thing.. Infact almost exactly the same thing. I just try to hide it. I don't even have emotions, I just have nothing to look forward to sometimes.

Work for whats right, and Im sure you will be a lot happier.
 
You know how many times I've said that in the last so many months? Seriously, give this mood a few hours. You'll be back to depressed and lonely in no time.
 
Actually rigt now I fluxuating between the two extreams at the moment, but the weekend is always the worst time of the week..:happysad:
Besides, have to keep this mood up, least I sprain my other hand, punching the refrigerator...
 
Siryus, it's great that you realize you need the life change. Just don't be too disappointed if it's not an instantaneous change. It took me months, hell I'd even say years to fully change myself. Now I just need to get the new circle of friends and I'm set. Have patience and dedication, and you'll be fine. :hug2: for you.
 
good luck, Siryus. Now that you've realized it, it's a lot easier to change things for the better. The hardest part, in my opinion, is setting down the emotional baggage you've been carrying that has been weighing you down. Setting it down and leaving it behind. It can be difficult, but once you let go of what you can't change it gets much easier.

Of course, being able to vent when you need to helps a lot too, so keep coming letting that pressure out here, where it's mostly safe.

Good luck again.
 
Not trying to sound like one of those "Up With People" pundits, but before you can like anyone else, you have to like yourself. Which isn't easy, because we're often our own worst critics.

Take it a day at a time, and do something nice for yourself every now and then. You're worth it.
 
Good luck man, take it a day at a time! :thumbsup:
I tried sometimes but faild, after that I realize that this is who I am even if I dosn't always like it. And with that I agree with Caffeinated about the "like other people" thing. I really hope you succeed to feel better.
 
Quoted for the truth. Not that I'm a downer, but I speak from experience; It's fun saying you need change but I have found it gets nowhere.
 
Then again, look how my mood has changed since that post even...

The best thing to do is get out of your house and do something. Doesn't matter what. Just try and stay productive, is your best bet.
 
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