recently i have had big life changes,my g/f an i have split after the way iv been treated,my best mate has also done things to make us fall out.i have then gone off on a wild one as to say,i seem to have lost who i was and thats a reborn christian as of this time last year
i changed my life completly an took on the tasks at hand to make my life better,new job,new girl,new mind set etc...its been incredibly hard to do it all but i did it,but now it seems that its all backfired on me and as i look at it all from outside,its apparent iv been to soft with everyone and they have took advantage,so my real question is,have i been doing things wrong or right? i really dont know but it seems thats gods path is to be walked all over and treated bad and to keep at it? i really don think i can...and i am now relooking into the things that made me change,for instance god created us in the image of himself,right so does that mean that he is just like us? except millions of years older and wiser and maybe lived through every phase that were about too? the thing is i once said i wanted to be a man of god and be like him as much as i could and still i do,but gods made mistakes old testament new testament,he was revengefull right? at the mistakes we made.he punished us right? well still hes not all good in my mind as yet,he is not this angelic being and nore is the devil this fire breathing monster they are sumwhat the same except in different frames of mind right? well im feeling very revengefull lately as many things are going wrong well everything in a way,so i think if god says forgive sinners and let me deal with them,why cant i deal with them? i want to be more like god and if he punishes people why cant i? for he is my father and teacher and i want to be like him,if the answer is no i shouldnt punish people myself then why? because i dont know whats right or wrong? im not good enough to learn people lessons? you may say have faith that god will punish them and i do but it doesnt stop the urg to wana have a go myself and learn to be more like god,to make more mistakes and to learn more lessons myself,confused is not the word at the moment
listen you people i havent come on here for english lessons if you dont like the puctuality then **** off.dont read it and dont comment just get to bed,i dont need to be told about jesus iv been through it all and i believe in god and jesus,im looking for different answers and you people are just dumb with your insults to me,i need help not ****in insults,thanks to any advice being given by the decent people
you say gods perception is not to be walked all over? i cant see that myself,gods way of life is good but for most its too late,we have commited the sins and we shall be punished,but what about people who havent been brought up to know anything about god? and no god is not the same today as tomorrow if that were the case we would not be here,we learn and so does god learn if you dont believe that then you are close minded to everything.i have bi-polar too so this does not help,and yes my big life changes does affect my programming im not depressed im hyper.to be honest its a waste of time on this site its full of judging idiots maybe like myself but so what,im sick of forgivin i may change again oneday but for now,im not doing good deeds so much as most say these do not make up for your sins,if god didnt want me to sin he should have made me perfect shouldnt he like him,an as for the commiting adultery by lusting? i shouldnt have a dick then should i
i changed my life completly an took on the tasks at hand to make my life better,new job,new girl,new mind set etc...its been incredibly hard to do it all but i did it,but now it seems that its all backfired on me and as i look at it all from outside,its apparent iv been to soft with everyone and they have took advantage,so my real question is,have i been doing things wrong or right? i really dont know but it seems thats gods path is to be walked all over and treated bad and to keep at it? i really don think i can...and i am now relooking into the things that made me change,for instance god created us in the image of himself,right so does that mean that he is just like us? except millions of years older and wiser and maybe lived through every phase that were about too? the thing is i once said i wanted to be a man of god and be like him as much as i could and still i do,but gods made mistakes old testament new testament,he was revengefull right? at the mistakes we made.he punished us right? well still hes not all good in my mind as yet,he is not this angelic being and nore is the devil this fire breathing monster they are sumwhat the same except in different frames of mind right? well im feeling very revengefull lately as many things are going wrong well everything in a way,so i think if god says forgive sinners and let me deal with them,why cant i deal with them? i want to be more like god and if he punishes people why cant i? for he is my father and teacher and i want to be like him,if the answer is no i shouldnt punish people myself then why? because i dont know whats right or wrong? im not good enough to learn people lessons? you may say have faith that god will punish them and i do but it doesnt stop the urg to wana have a go myself and learn to be more like god,to make more mistakes and to learn more lessons myself,confused is not the word at the moment
listen you people i havent come on here for english lessons if you dont like the puctuality then **** off.dont read it and dont comment just get to bed,i dont need to be told about jesus iv been through it all and i believe in god and jesus,im looking for different answers and you people are just dumb with your insults to me,i need help not ****in insults,thanks to any advice being given by the decent people
you say gods perception is not to be walked all over? i cant see that myself,gods way of life is good but for most its too late,we have commited the sins and we shall be punished,but what about people who havent been brought up to know anything about god? and no god is not the same today as tomorrow if that were the case we would not be here,we learn and so does god learn if you dont believe that then you are close minded to everything.i have bi-polar too so this does not help,and yes my big life changes does affect my programming im not depressed im hyper.to be honest its a waste of time on this site its full of judging idiots maybe like myself but so what,im sick of forgivin i may change again oneday but for now,im not doing good deeds so much as most say these do not make up for your sins,if god didnt want me to sin he should have made me perfect shouldnt he like him,an as for the commiting adultery by lusting? i shouldnt have a dick then should i