A bit more bitching ...

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Kennith C

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So as you can see from my location English is my second language . I've been studing it for quite some time by now but i'm not as good as i want to , guess you'll have to bare with my misspelling .
I'll turn 18 few monts from now so i have what you may call two years of concious life . I can't say that it sucked but it wasn't eny good either .
I'll throw some facts so we can skip some of the flamming about trivial things .
I have food , house , parents , and decent allowance . Now i KNOW that there are many people my age without that kind of luxе but i'm not talking about them so .!. them .
I also have few friends ( can't remember which one was for little but enough with or without "a" but they're enough :) )
Back to the problem , for those two years i don't have a SINGLE moment that worth looking back and saying " Lol that was worth it making it that far "
Everything is gray . Going to school , going out with friends , going home , watching some random movie , sleep and repeat . Is that all ? I spend a lot of time living and since i'm doing it i want to feel good about it , damn .
I guess finding a girlfriend will help but since we're talking real life here it's way to hard to do so .
Asking if it's going to be pretty much the same in the future is kind of pointless in >that< forum , because reading through your posts makes me feel like there are people with lifes which unlike mine are black not gray . By the way that makes me kind of happy :) . But enyway , do you have moments that makes you think that all that misery was worth it and if so what were they ?
That's one , second . Do you have some kind of solution ? Smoking weed doesn't count . I'm already doing it besides laughting not knowing why isn't as good as it looks . Alchohol is only good in huge amounts combined with some loud music and girls shaking their asses . Yep you've got it right i'm talking about the discotheques but that one usually leads me to things like throwing my guts up throught my mouth and not remembering what exactly i've done so it lose it's point enyway .
 
well thats sounds sorta cool for your but i learned how to speak english over the phone with just my best friend when she moved to the us and my other friend that got back from teh us taugh me how to type in english lol but really weed and beer isnt really all u need to look back and say o i rember when i did this it was the most stupidesnt thig i ever did.try me i am a blonde in a burnents body lol i am so funny and everything i do u can look back and laugh and say i was stupid lol its fun all u have to do is hang out with friends and say something really stupid and act like u ment to say something else take me for an example there was a garbage truck right there and i go to my friends o crap o no i hope that wasnt our bus lol i was so stupid right there and i said i didnt see the garbage truck and to say the truth i really didnt im blind.
 
My whole life's a gray area. I'm 20, been out of school for 3 years, unemployed, and have no idea what I want to do with my life.:confused:
 
well...I lived in a grey area a long time right after my dad died..it sucked big time.. You just have to appreciate the small things in life, maybe get a dog or cat? after I moved into my own apartment I have wanted to have a cat or dog so I wouldnt feel so lonely..

But back to the helping part. try to find things that are fun, try to make life mor happy. You will never be happy if you feel grey all the time. Do stupid stuff with your friends, nothing dangerous but ex.stupid bets like "I bet one beer that you can't run through the neighbourhood naked" and try to get a girl or a friend girl..or girlfriend..have costume parties(it's soon halloween). Dance around naked in your apartment listening to music reallyreally hard..or just lie staring up and listen to music that you love. Go out, you don't need to get drunk, believe me..because you can get so in the mood with the music and athmosphere you can be without alcohol (or if you NEED it just take a little). just shake that ass without any alcohol in your blood.. :hug2:
 
Well my life is rather grey, but grey is safe. How many people have ever broke a bone during a grey time in there life? Yeah, grey is boring, but it is safe. If you realy want to liven up your life, make a list of things to do and wright them on the calender. Road trips are allways interesting. But don't force anything, let things happen on there own.:thumbsup:
 
i've had few memorable moments, but it seems never enough. if you're still in school, then make time to be a jerk and piss about. cause, buddy, life is about to get alot more mundane.

stardust, i wish you were around when i was in school:lol:. running down the street naked is not something i've tried before. damn, none of my friends are wacky enough to do anything like that now.

i miss the days of mischief.:sad:
 
Well, I can't really say anything because I'm still going through my glory years, but I think the weed and beer thing sounds good.

Oh, and where the hell is Plavdov? :happysad:
 
>Plovdiv< is the second bigest city in > Bulgaria < which happens to be the country i live in .
I've read through your post and i'm glad to see that there are a lot of depressed people around the world :)
That running naked with a can of beer thing is more like a scene of american teen comedy .
However coming to think of it i do have some good memories of this summer brake . Yesterday was one of those day when you feel like shit and every good thing inside your head disappears so you can feel even more miserable .
I don't want to be accused of lyng ( damn i can't write that one properly ) so i'll describe them for all of you nonbelievers .
First one was kind of negative but still fun and memorable . I've decided to enlist myself for some random job . What i've got was something that i can't explain with my current english level so i'll give you only the basics .
Carring heavy things that have the nasty habit of making cuts on your hands if you're not wearing gloves ( i wasn't )
Process these lists of pasteboard ( not sure about the word , but the thing which is used for making cardboard box ) through machines which feasts with human flesh and will have yours for breakfast if you lose concentration for a sec .
Doing that for eight hours per day for 10 levs which is 6.25 $ ( for the whole working day not per hour , what were you thinking :) )
After this job experience of mine i know why school is important .
The second was my sea vacation . It was two guys three girls situation and it was fun except for the one moment when i was so wasted that i needed all my will power to walk alone and not being carried by two girls which combined weight about as much as i do .
The third one made me laught for a whole day . I was going to my usual weed smoking place with this friend of mine . We were joking about something like " Our weed smoking quest has almost ended " ( that's because we've gahtered our stuff the day before from a village nearby Plovdiv ) . So enyway were walking on this hill which is in the middle of the city and guess what . There's a cop straight against us . He was looking at us so we've looked right back him , he looked us some more and than we've calmly , well calm as much as this is possible with pocket full of weed , turned our backs and start walking away . Things were fine but i guess we've looked to suspicuous . Few meters away i've heard " Boys wait for i sec i want to check something " . Shit till that moment i've never knew exactly how fast i can run and it was tough terrain something like mountain slope with roots and few demolished remains of stone stairs . We've stopped running about half a kilometer away from the hill once we've made sure the cop wasn't behind us .
Our feets were hurting we could barely breath but yet we've laughted our ass of even without the weed .
 
Life sucks only when you don't have enough money to do whatever you want.Since then I've been trying to get rich and untill now I've had no success, however now I'm planning to invest all my money in something and become a slaveowner after my investment pays off.

Hooray for money (I guess this is the place to insert some gay icons) :sword: :thumbsdn: :thumbsup: :frown: :bomb: :gun:
 
Well, for starters your English is pretty good. I've seen people that grew up in the US that haven't mastered it as well as you have.

Beyond that, life is mostly what you make of it. YOu don't have to have money to be happy. Look at Bill Gates. He's the richest fucker in the world and he's also not a very happy guy. Money allows you to buy things. It doesn't make you happy.

If you look back you will have things to remember. A christmas present that just rocked. Some stupid prank you pulled in school. A birthday party. A sunny day. A joke your friend told you.

In life, the small things are what you really need to cherish. I graduated from College, I walked the line. I remember nearly nothing about it. It was a huge event but so what? No, I remember my friend Renata who I graduated having a conniption because they weren't going to be able to pronounce her last name. I remember her looking at me when I spelled it phoenetically and hearing her say "All you did was seperate the sylables out... if that's all it takes the dean is a mormon. Or moron... damnit I hate English."

That was worth remembering. Walking accross the stage and getting a diploma wasn't.

Your life is what you choose to make of it. If you sit around waiting for shit to happen it won't. If you give up and go do something else, it will happen.
 
GO OUT AND MAKE YOUR LIFE INTERESTING
get a job
go socialise more, dont stay on the internet and tell us, go out there, spend money, do shit thats fun, hell travel countries, backpack.
 
Well, I don't see really much in life. But if you are really somewhat wanting to make life interesting, a serious girl does some good if not that, dream.
 
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