(a small history)(this isnt a repeated questioned, i changed somethings and took some stuff out.) I've known i was gay since 7th grade. I did experiment in junior high and found out that i liked oral and anal sex. Well, after that guy moved i never really tried to find any other "gay" or "bi" guys, so i just started dating girls. Now, i've never had sex with a girl, but i've always had guy friends, that were in sports or popular, and if you didn't have a girl friend and were single very long (in my high school) you were targeted as "gay". So, i did what i shouldn't have done, i went out with pretty and popular girls so i could continue being part of that click. All through out high school i had one guy i would fulled around with, he was popular and had a girl friend, we would use each out for sex pretty much. So after high school, i've not even tried to get with a guy, so i could keep all my good guy friends. I know that if they dont want to be my friend after i come out then they arent my friends, but atm that is to hard for me to do. I like masculine gay guys, facial hair, stomach hair, some chest hair, guys that play xbox and listen to rock or indie. I'm not really attracted to feminine guys, no offense, its just not my thing.
So I finally found a guy that is a couple years younger than me that has dated guys for a few years and has "experience" with other gay guys, and relationships and how they work. He isn't completely open either. I've never had a loving relationship with a guy, it was strictly for sex, and then that was only in junior high and one guy in high school. Now, i've not really wanted to just go out and get sex, i've wanted a relationship. So for 5 years i've just been a lone. This guy is awesome, he is very masculine in looks and the things he likes. He doesnt really communicate very much with me tho. I just dont know what he is thinking. We spend time together when we are visiting college friends from either towns and his family lives where i live. We haven't done anything yet, except "make out." And the night we did, i told him how this was my first "real" guy date, and kinda told him that i've not been with but 2 people. We have so much in common and he always has nice things to say. We have only been talking for maybe 4 weeks. He knows that i have been penetrated, and that i enjoy both being a top and a bottom, as well as oral sex, although semen still kinda sickens me....i just dont know why...the taste i guess, i dont know. So tonight, we were talking dirty to each other, and i finally asked him if he'd rather top or bottom if he had a choice. Well he'd rather top, which is fine, since i've always enjoyed both. Well he asked me which one i liked, and i told him that i have enjoyed anal, but enjoyed both. Now, i understand, or think i do, that most relationships partners like both or one likes to top and one likes to bottom. And i also know that many of the gay guys that have tried to talk to me indiscreetly since i was out of school were mostly bottoms and had, well, they had been around. I told him i have only been with 2 people, and that is the truth. But if he thinks i like anal sex, do you think he may think i am lying to him? I really think this could be an amazing relationship, the one i have been waiting for. We have all the same turn ons, and offs, we like so many of the same things. Our moods complement each others, our tone of voice... a lot seems like a dream. Does anyone have any advice they could give me? maybe even thru messenger if you wouldnt mind? I am a masculine guy, but i think i may have more emotions than him, and i kinda need some guidance. If my story struck you in anyway, i'd love your help, or advice.
i wanted to add, that any of my friends that came out that were in our click were usually kicked out and the straight guys never really talked with them afterward. In high school, i never played sports but i enjoyed all the other things that most guys like, cars, music, we'd play halo every thurdsay nights and someones house, and bring out tvs, stuff like that. i didnt have a squad of female friends, and didnt like to go shopping for clothes or listen to Britney spears, my homo phobic friends kicked them out of the "click" we were in. So, i stayed with the "masculine" guys, kept girl friends, that kinda thing.
So I finally found a guy that is a couple years younger than me that has dated guys for a few years and has "experience" with other gay guys, and relationships and how they work. He isn't completely open either. I've never had a loving relationship with a guy, it was strictly for sex, and then that was only in junior high and one guy in high school. Now, i've not really wanted to just go out and get sex, i've wanted a relationship. So for 5 years i've just been a lone. This guy is awesome, he is very masculine in looks and the things he likes. He doesnt really communicate very much with me tho. I just dont know what he is thinking. We spend time together when we are visiting college friends from either towns and his family lives where i live. We haven't done anything yet, except "make out." And the night we did, i told him how this was my first "real" guy date, and kinda told him that i've not been with but 2 people. We have so much in common and he always has nice things to say. We have only been talking for maybe 4 weeks. He knows that i have been penetrated, and that i enjoy both being a top and a bottom, as well as oral sex, although semen still kinda sickens me....i just dont know why...the taste i guess, i dont know. So tonight, we were talking dirty to each other, and i finally asked him if he'd rather top or bottom if he had a choice. Well he'd rather top, which is fine, since i've always enjoyed both. Well he asked me which one i liked, and i told him that i have enjoyed anal, but enjoyed both. Now, i understand, or think i do, that most relationships partners like both or one likes to top and one likes to bottom. And i also know that many of the gay guys that have tried to talk to me indiscreetly since i was out of school were mostly bottoms and had, well, they had been around. I told him i have only been with 2 people, and that is the truth. But if he thinks i like anal sex, do you think he may think i am lying to him? I really think this could be an amazing relationship, the one i have been waiting for. We have all the same turn ons, and offs, we like so many of the same things. Our moods complement each others, our tone of voice... a lot seems like a dream. Does anyone have any advice they could give me? maybe even thru messenger if you wouldnt mind? I am a masculine guy, but i think i may have more emotions than him, and i kinda need some guidance. If my story struck you in anyway, i'd love your help, or advice.
i wanted to add, that any of my friends that came out that were in our click were usually kicked out and the straight guys never really talked with them afterward. In high school, i never played sports but i enjoyed all the other things that most guys like, cars, music, we'd play halo every thurdsay nights and someones house, and bring out tvs, stuff like that. i didnt have a squad of female friends, and didnt like to go shopping for clothes or listen to Britney spears, my homo phobic friends kicked them out of the "click" we were in. So, i stayed with the "masculine" guys, kept girl friends, that kinda thing.