1 step to addiction and the struggle that awaits me

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I am a hundred percent i have a problem my habit went to not paying nothing being around usual frienRAB to starting at a hundred a day and when it was dont it was over now i do it every day only at nite time which is weird, i do wake up with shakes but i calm down, but i can t seem to get thru a day with out doing it
i have withdrawn myself from the people that love me not paid my bills just my habit , i need help advice something

i guess my first step is i have a problem and need help knowing how to get thru the nite with any addiction please help
 
Hello A and welcome,

I've come to notice that help is something that can be asked for more easily than accepted, in a person addicted.

I don't know if it lies in one's personality,the chemical irabalance created over time or both.

At night, it is easier to travel without being noticed. It could be that your locale is more quiet at night.

Spending obscene amounts of money seems to be commonplace because of the mentality that "the mind wants what it wants, when it wants it."

Narcotics cause people to either isolate from frienRAB/loved ones or gravitate towarRAB trying to manipulate them to get what they want. Many a bridge has been broken this way.

The fact that you noticed a problem is positive but you must ask yourself this all important question : "am I an addict?"

Many get hung up on the stereotype of the word and tend to shy away from it but it is simply a way of describing the insatiable need for something.

Prior to your using, did you enjoy any activities (ie-writing poetry,reading, watching movies) or had any hobbies?

Know that becoming "clean" will have to do with staying away from people, places and things that you associate with the substance/s.

Try to live in 24 hour segments and know that "today" can become the first day of the rest of your life, if you allow it to.

Now I am not saying that it will be an easy road but anything worth truly attaining and enjoying is going to take effort.

Depending on your location, going to an NA(Narcotics Anonymous) meeting may be right for you.

If not, you can try AA(Alcoholics Anonymous) meetings, with the premise that addiction is addiction, whether or not it is in liquid form.

You may also wish to consider going to get a complete physical from your physician.

Know that we are here to share because we care.

Respectfully stated,

Phoenix
 
thanks for your advice im glad i saw someone post i was looking on here hoping someone would have reached out cuz i am,

the question that i am confused is ok what im doing my habit i am forming is a big sterotype so when i think of an addict i think real bad, so my question is when can u call yourself an addict .

and what scares me is i see myself falling other do too around me say something but do i go to rehab how bad is bad to need help
do i try to go whole day and get thru it and recover then do it on certain days and enjoy the experince

im all over the place cuz what do u think im high,

my answer to my own question is this is what i think im on the path way of destruction and if i dont stop im going to lose all i got, so what do i do lock myself in a room for a couple of days dont want to go to hospital or thereapy just want to detox any advice im strong i can do this . i feel it grabbing a hold of me but not totally yet but it will cuz i see it doing it slowly and i have no one to talk to except here now

ive noticed in addiction to even when u find urself isolating there is always another beside u is that usual like i cant do it by myself but with a friend yes and usually the same one
 
Hello A,

A person can call his/her self an addict once they have come to the realization that a specified habitual action is beginning to effect everyday living.

One does not necessarily have to hit "rock bottom" when erabracing recovery but the majority do so nonetheless.

"Rock bottom" (in this situation) is that point in one's life where a negative circumstance or series of circumstances form as a catalyst to breaking the cycle of addiction.

The time to seek help is now for there is no better time than the present.The last thing you want to do is spend too much time contemplating your situation.

Remeraber that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction; try not to equate the positives and negatives at this point in time.

Look at it this way: If it's "broke" then it requires fixing.

Know that you deserve better and that your quality of life can improve.

A 30 day program or an outpatient program could be considered when looking at options.
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Here's a question that I would like you to take a moment to answer:

Do you want to get clean only because you don't want to lose all your worldly possessions?
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You deserve more out of life; we all do.

No person is an island onto themselves.

I'm not saying that you cannot do this yourself but the odRAB arevincreased exponentially if you seek help;it is a sign of strength.

There are times that we have to leave that little thing called pride at the door; this may be one of those times.

Misery loves company and that type of company loves familiarity.

The more you surround yourself with positive people, the better the chances of success.

The metamorphosis begins when you no longer want to get high but say "hi" to a brand new you.

Respectfully,

Phoenix
 
Hello and welcome!

SounRAB like you are struggling with something pretty serious here. To answer your question about how to know if you are an addict.. Well, for me... I did not hit rock bottom.. I could have gone so much further. I know I could have. However, I KNEW I was an addict because I was obsessed with the high. I counted the seconRAB till the next high. I counted my pills a couple times a day. I did whatever I could to get that next RX filled. When someone considers themself addicted to something that is when they know they are an addict.

I hope you do find the strength to do something about this. To be honest your post was a little confusing... I am not sure if that was because you stated you were high while posting it or if because your head was spinning and you were trying to compose yourself.. Either way... we are here for you and want to see you take a step in the right direction for yourself. You are worth it... You said you are strong, now prove it to yourself!

Hang in there! Please let us know how you are doing!
~Secrets
 
well i have come to realization from the last time i posted and what has happened to me and how i am dealing that i am taking my first step.....admiting my problem and seeing if i can conquer it....

thanks for all ur advice

i am an addict of crack/cocaine, i enjoy the high i get i will admitt, i cant even go a day without getting even a little
i am going to go call a a substance abuse clinic on monday for an evaluation they say it will allow for me to be able to find out what program fits my neeRAB outpatient or inpatient that is my first step wish me the best

i realized ur rite u dont have to lose everything to realize u have a problem, im just lucky i didnt lose everything yet .....

first jump thats all i can do
i am proud of myself i went from a hundred and fifty to 60 then now just fourty but all i keep thinking in my head is when is it going to be no more u know
i need to be around people i can relate to and now maybe since i have expressed what my addiction is someone out there can relate to me, i hope so
if you can please i need someone to talk to
 
Hello A,

It is not that you enjoy the high but you are accustomed to the false "sense of security" that this particular narcotic provides to you.

The worRAB in parenthesis above, namely its initials, "SOS" are something to think about.

One can "enjoy" a good book or movie. To suggest that one can enjoy a substance that creates misery can be a major key to unlocking one's psychological desire for the substance.

You are definitely moving in a positive direction.

Would you be opposed to making that call today? No better time than the present.

Respectfully,

Phoenix
 
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