you wanna know what my fuckin' problem is?

ILovePie123

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I could have written a long, drawn out rant in this forum, but Unforgiven stole it from me. Fuck school. Fuck people.

I may be getting told I'm going nowhere in high school by other people in my grade now, but in all reality, most of them will drop out of college but in addition, they'll have student loans they have to repay on their shitty wages. Some kid last school year told me I had no future. This kid smoked so much pot he was practically retarded. I would be surprised if he would even remember when his college classes were. People like this make me not want to do good on purpose. Just so I can show them I'll be complete shit in school and still do better than them in life.

I was at a guidance meeting earlier this week where my English teacher, my guidance counselor, and my dad were all sitting at a table trying to motivate me to do better so I could graduate. Why? Who cares? My intelligence is completely overrated. I'm sick of being told I'm smart by authority figures. I'd rather be stupid so people would leave me alone. I can definetely relate to what you were saying about the group work. In the first week of school this year, I was in a class and we were separated into groups pretty quickly. I didn't want to drift over to a group. My teacher got so fed up that he ended up sending me to the office. I didn't say a word, I just got up and left. As I was leaving, some kid goes to me "Wow Mike, was it really that hard to just do something?" and the teacher goes "Trust me, I had him in biology two years ago, I know all about it". This kid was complaining to the teacher that he got a 55 on his project recently. "Oh boo hoo, I got a 55 on my project it's all your fault you big meanie"...suck it up and grow a dick. And when I had that teacher for biology, it was his first year teaching. You can't go acting like you've been around since the dawn of time just because you're not the new guy anymore. Ooh, it's your third year. Big shit.

Work is something I don't mind because I actually feel useful when I'm there. What I do helps other people. As you can tell, I work at a restaurant. Every time I clear a table, I help some more customers get to their seats quicker, and make the job easier for the hosts who are seating the people so they don't have to bus the tables themselves. Every time I ever turned in a homework assignment at school, I feel like I wasted my life. I wasted half an hour doing some crap writing essay to have a teacher not even read it and just put a check at the top of the paper. Nobody else saw my work. This doesn't motivate me for shit.

With that said, if I do go to college, I'll need at least a year off to regain my sanity from the hell that is public education.
 
I was excellent in school. I did not have to study, even in college, to get good grades. Why? because I remember everything I read. But I dont remember anything that is shown to me, say, step by step. That is why I want to be a teacher, because I can not do the doing of things. People who can retain by doing can have a good life. CL does things, he just does them, and does them right. So, if you dont carea bout history and math, so what? Lots of people did not, and do not.


You made a choice in school not to try harder, accept more. Now you are going to argue that it was the teachers who did not teach, or you who did not listen. Does it matter at THIS point in your life what happened five years ago?



Failure is a fact of life. Everyone fails. I have failed being a wife and sometimes in my life I have failed being a mother. I failed at being a daughter and a sunday school teacher. So what? I get back up, brush myself off, and start over. Try again, try harder. Fight that desire to roll over and die. Everyone rolls over. Dont be an everybody. Stand up for who you are, if not what you are.



Oh, waaaa. I dont have my HS diploma. I dropped out in tenth grade. They passed me to 11th, but fuck THEM. I HATE THEM. I stayed home, had my first born son. I worked to get past all of the fucking horseshit judgements that everyone passes on a teen age mom. I got my GED in two weeks. It was easy. I went to college. I was on the deans honor roll nearly two years running. Not because I am intelligent, but because I fought. I fought to give my children a better life. I fought for my family and I fought for myself. And I will continue to fight until someone puts a bullet in my head. I've been doing that since I was a kid.



Nobody wants to be ignored or looked down on or pushed around. You should choose to do what is right for you. Not what THEY think is right for you. I hate it when people look at me and turn thier nose up. Yeah, bitch. Im 27 and I have a 9,8 and 5 year old. They are mine, and I am proud of them.



On a final note, being normal has nothing to do with how other percieve you. You make that choice to be less than what you want to be. If you wind up trolling in the park, you have nobody to blame but yourself. you are old enough to be passed the whining stage. You are smart enough to make decisions for your life. So what if you dont want to go to college? Im the only person in my entire family that went to college and graduated. You dont have to prove anything to THEM. but you should evaluate how you want to look at yourself, everyday when you wakke up. If you dont care about how you feel about yourself, then fuck it. but if you do, then everymorning when you wake up, you commit yourself to fighting the bullshit. You work harder, you fight longer, you take an extra job or start looking for a better one. You geht off your fucking ass and TRY. If you fail, so what. Everyone fails. There is no perfection, no normal, no smarter. There is only you and who you want to be.


DG the Wise.
 
Everyone fucks up at least once in their lives. I think its okay to toil in obscurity for awhile longer until you get pissed off enough to do something about it.

To this day, I still say I do not care if I ever become homeless.
I've been a successful corporate sell out.
I've been everything from an A student to a drop out.
I'm currently going for a degree which doesn't guarantee me anything other than heavy financial burdens.
But I realize at least, sometimes the choices I made were not the easiest.
And now that I'm older, all I'm concerned about is working smart & not hard.

About my initial statement: I think ppl percieve themselves as complete fuck ups all their lives until they allow themselves some credit.
 
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