Yesterday wrote a goodbye message to my ex fiance of four years "Your recent beaviour erased the 4 years of us like we never had them". It's a final goodbye. I am still so hurt and Im still in love. But this just closed the door for everything (and it makes me wanna cry having this feeling that that's it). He messed up our whole relationship when he just ran away, now he is happy in another relationship after just few months and I'm just left hurt. I really wanted us to get married, which had to happen this month and have a beautiful future... But the WAY he left me he made it sure there is no going back. So why i am the one left with all the heartache, while he is moving on with this new girl, who totally understands him and still being a jerk to me?