Ok it a long story but am going to tell you all the honest details and what exactly went throught my head when this happened. So i agree to let a guy have sex with me he gets on top of me and it begins. He thrusts so hard it hurts i think to my self i gotta tell him slow down cos i cant continue sex this way it to rought. But i go to say the words and i dont cos i realise if i do my voice will shake due to the rocking. I think i will sound stupid so i deceide to let it pass and i say noting thinking he will get tired and slow down himself. But he dosent so i shout NO, his immediate responce is to get his two arms around my lower back and pull me up in a grip. While he dose that this is exactly what gos throught my head ''You Ignorant prick you didnt even want to hear me?tell him slow down no dont he could be a bastard that gets a kick and go faster''. So i say to myself even thought i hate the sex dont worry he *** soon. So he lets go of my grip and i lay in pain waiting for it to finish. At one stage i get so sick of it i ask he gona ***? he say no it then over. I dont ask him why afterwards dont know what responce i would get. Ok if he had stopped at NO, i would have felt safe to say pls slow down. But the fact his responce was to grab me is totally out of line and freaky?. So with all the details and exactly what was going on throught my head during it. Do you think this is rape? Pls help me?
If he had at least stop when i said NO, i would have said pls slow down. But fact he grab me i did think about saying slow down cos i so could not continue sex that way.But i thought if i said it maybe he would get a sick kick and go faster. So i deceide to say noting to him. Do you think this was rape or something else. I was hopeing to say slow down, to make sex better for me.But his action was so outta line. Can you understand why am so upset and confused.
If he had at least stop when i said NO, i would have said pls slow down. But fact he grab me i did think about saying slow down cos i so could not continue sex that way.But i thought if i said it maybe he would get a sick kick and go faster. So i deceide to say noting to him. Do you think this was rape or something else. I was hopeing to say slow down, to make sex better for me.But his action was so outta line. Can you understand why am so upset and confused.