situation? I love her, with everything i am. And my 1ST priority is her happiness. but i get very jealous or envious, or idk i cant explain it. But at any rate she goes to ballroom dance lessons once a week, i go to a BallRoomSocial with her once a month. (She lives an hour away so i cant go the classes with her like i want too(too expensive). Anyway at the socials they give short free lessons o how to BRD, and ive seen countless videos on youtube(all sensual and and touchy and exotic and stuff)... so i know what its like. and when im not there, and i know shes doing these dances with other guys it makes me feel like crap.. something claws up my insides... i dont want her to stop dancing cause she loves it, and shes gonna be really good at it someday. But i also loathe the fact that shes dancing these dances with other guys. I wish it could be me.
Please dont say im selfish or controling... i dont wanna be... and i dont thik ive ever been. Ive talked to her about these feeling and everytime i do she just says "well you shouldt feel that way..." or else when i keep going on the subject cause i DO feel that way, she gets really sad, and feels bad about dancing, I dont want that, at all. but it really bothers me, and sometimes i just cant contain the feelings and they spill out.
I'll never leave her, i love her way to much, so dont suggest that. Don't reccoment therapy i cant afford it. Just give me some advice that doesnt make me feel like a bigger azz than i already feel i am? Thank you..
Please dont say im selfish or controling... i dont wanna be... and i dont thik ive ever been. Ive talked to her about these feeling and everytime i do she just says "well you shouldt feel that way..." or else when i keep going on the subject cause i DO feel that way, she gets really sad, and feels bad about dancing, I dont want that, at all. but it really bothers me, and sometimes i just cant contain the feelings and they spill out.
I'll never leave her, i love her way to much, so dont suggest that. Don't reccoment therapy i cant afford it. Just give me some advice that doesnt make me feel like a bigger azz than i already feel i am? Thank you..