Would my situation make me lower in life than my sister?

[marsha]

My sister, who is 17, will graduate high school this year. I am 18. I graduated high school in 2008 and took 1 semester of computer technology in one college and 1 semester of information technology in another (I had to transfer because the college i went to couldn't accept American citizens). I lived in the Philippines from 2006 to 2009 with my grand parents and 2 cousins. I did not graduate college there. Anyways, upon returning to California, I applied for financial aid at a community college. It's been 8 to 9 months since then and I still haven't done anything about it even though three or four months ago, it was said to be completed but still missing one document. Since that time, I've mostly been applying for jobs online and currently I'm volunteering to get some job experience in order to get a job. I just got my drivers permit a week or so ago also. I really don't know what to do with my life. My mom keeps reminding me that my sister is going to graduate this year and that she will be going to college,then questions me if I'm going to follow-up with the financial aid I applied to at the community college months ago. When I tell her that I don't know or that I'm still looking, she mumbles to herself in Ilocano that I'm not going to have a good life or job(or something like that) if I don't go to college. I'm not even sure if I want to go to college at this time. I'm not really sure what I want. Does my not wanting to go to college at this time lower my chances of being successful in life? What if I want to go to college later on? Would my sister me more successful in life if she's going to college and all I'm doing is trying to get a job/volunteering?