School started back in August and this is the first year that has actaully been hard for me. I used to only have to study in math, but this year I have to study for every subject but history, and I just wasnt used to it, and got really overwhelmed. I worried about my grades all the time, and got really stresses since I had to study for 6 tests at a time, and work on 6 classes of work at the same time. I'm in the AICE program (similar to the IB program, college courses and higher than AP classes) I'm 16 and a sophomore.
Anyways, back in August and September is when I was the most stressed, since I hadnt adjusted. I couldnt sleep at night since I was so worried about my work, I got super tired and dizzy, and got sore throats, headaches, and stomachaches often. I got to the point where I was so nervous and worried that I would skip breakfast, eat a piece of fruit for lunch, and take literally one bite of dinner and I couldnt eat anymore. So basically I had a piece of fruit all day, and thats all I could eat. I'm skinny so it wasnt healthy for me to lose any weight. I would come home sometimes and cry because I was so stressed. The best part of my day was cross country practice. Yeah, running 6 miles in Floridas heat was the highlight of my day....
Now I eat again, but I still cant sleep much, and I'm always tired and worry, and I get sick alot easier than I used to. I'm not depressed or anything, I just literally worry myself sick :/
My cross country coach (& she's my teacher) was talking at FCA on Thursday morning (FCA is a Bible Study group at our school. Its optional and I choose to go) and she was saying how in college, she went through a very similar thing. She also had never had to work hard and made awesome grades without studying. She got into UF and even thought college was easy up until her junior year. She had an on campus job dealing with finances and scholorship money or something like that, so it was an important job. She took 4 hours of summer courses a day, and had to study and work for the first time. She said she would work, go straight to school, then come back to her dorm, and stay up until 2 am studying and doing work every night. Her boss was gone for work, so she was put incharge, and she said between schooling and running her job, she got so worried that she got really sick, couldnt eat, lost 15 pounds (and was thin and didnt need tio) and was hospitalized overnight. She's much better now, still worries, but not nearly as bad...
My mom knows about how I cant sleep well, and how I broke down crying, but has no idea about how I couldnt eat. She's 32, and we are close, but I just dont want to tell her about this. I have no siblings either :/ I'm very close to my coach as well, since our xc team is close, and she isnt very old, and doesnt have kids and isnt married, so she pretty much treats us as her kids. Since she was in a similar situation 15 years ago, would it be alright to talk to her about it or is that to personal? I''m not as bad as I was in August, but I still am not back to normal
Anyways, back in August and September is when I was the most stressed, since I hadnt adjusted. I couldnt sleep at night since I was so worried about my work, I got super tired and dizzy, and got sore throats, headaches, and stomachaches often. I got to the point where I was so nervous and worried that I would skip breakfast, eat a piece of fruit for lunch, and take literally one bite of dinner and I couldnt eat anymore. So basically I had a piece of fruit all day, and thats all I could eat. I'm skinny so it wasnt healthy for me to lose any weight. I would come home sometimes and cry because I was so stressed. The best part of my day was cross country practice. Yeah, running 6 miles in Floridas heat was the highlight of my day....
Now I eat again, but I still cant sleep much, and I'm always tired and worry, and I get sick alot easier than I used to. I'm not depressed or anything, I just literally worry myself sick :/
My cross country coach (& she's my teacher) was talking at FCA on Thursday morning (FCA is a Bible Study group at our school. Its optional and I choose to go) and she was saying how in college, she went through a very similar thing. She also had never had to work hard and made awesome grades without studying. She got into UF and even thought college was easy up until her junior year. She had an on campus job dealing with finances and scholorship money or something like that, so it was an important job. She took 4 hours of summer courses a day, and had to study and work for the first time. She said she would work, go straight to school, then come back to her dorm, and stay up until 2 am studying and doing work every night. Her boss was gone for work, so she was put incharge, and she said between schooling and running her job, she got so worried that she got really sick, couldnt eat, lost 15 pounds (and was thin and didnt need tio) and was hospitalized overnight. She's much better now, still worries, but not nearly as bad...
My mom knows about how I cant sleep well, and how I broke down crying, but has no idea about how I couldnt eat. She's 32, and we are close, but I just dont want to tell her about this. I have no siblings either :/ I'm very close to my coach as well, since our xc team is close, and she isnt very old, and doesnt have kids and isnt married, so she pretty much treats us as her kids. Since she was in a similar situation 15 years ago, would it be alright to talk to her about it or is that to personal? I''m not as bad as I was in August, but I still am not back to normal