Would everyone in my life be better off without me around?

[Eric]

I can never look anyone in the eyes, and when I do its always met with an uncomfortable face. Im pretty sure I don't have any sort of mental disease, I am just too aware and I try too hard. All the time, every day, I try too hard. I go into any sort of public place and I will look at any random person, and they have a painful look on their face as long as im around. Everyday, its the same thing, and everyday I tell myself 'maybe theyre just having a bad day', but Im not fooling anyone. I simply can not have my face seem like its relaxed or something, even when im not necessarily stressed at the moment; I know this because professors at school will look at me during the whole lecture and they'll look like they're scared or pissed off. My friend the other day looked at me then turned to someone else and said, "He hates me, I dont know why he hangs out with me". Even around my family, I see they're eyes will glaze over or look really really tired when im around, and my dad will get up set at the smallest thing, but I know its just because im making an uncomfortable environment. It makes it to the point where even if i try to not think about it, I can look at anyone and they'll look extremely uncomfortable then I have to TRY and focus on making a neutral expression. I know I sound crazy, and paranoid but this is my reality. I think everyone I know would be better if I were dead, and they could live a life where they could smile freely.