I haven't talked to my parents for just over 4 months because I didn't feel like I was being heard by my mom. When I do talk to them, I yell or scream. I'm an older teenager in high school by the way. I am the worst daughter ever. I treat my mom like crap with no respect. My dad is amazing, in so many ways, and I treat him like crap to, and I don't think I will ever make him proud because I am such a disappointment.
To add I don't study or care for my education which he values so much, and right now, it is critical. I'm very selfish, my dad gets me everything I want and when I don't, I get annoyed and angry. My parents fight over me all the time, asking each other why I'm not talking and my mom usually blames it on my dad who just takes all of our crap. I'm surprised he hasn't left.
But I love them, I just can't and won't show it. I can't be soft, I'll feel too vulnerable. And I can't get out of this loop. Does anyone have ANY advice? Or anything you think may change my perspective or my ways? I'm lost.
I wish I was never born because I'm completely destroying the life these great people worked so hard to build. I'm not being dramatic, I really am destroying it.
To add I don't study or care for my education which he values so much, and right now, it is critical. I'm very selfish, my dad gets me everything I want and when I don't, I get annoyed and angry. My parents fight over me all the time, asking each other why I'm not talking and my mom usually blames it on my dad who just takes all of our crap. I'm surprised he hasn't left.
But I love them, I just can't and won't show it. I can't be soft, I'll feel too vulnerable. And I can't get out of this loop. Does anyone have ANY advice? Or anything you think may change my perspective or my ways? I'm lost.
I wish I was never born because I'm completely destroying the life these great people worked so hard to build. I'm not being dramatic, I really am destroying it.