Wow I am in the same boat as you. I was a pain pill addict then got on Suboxone back in February. It has been wonderful in helping me get clean. In the span of a few months I quit pain pills, Adderall, alcohol and cigarettes. Lately though I have been trying to taper off Suboxone and I feel horrible. It is a very hard drug to come off. I honestly couldn't tell you if I think i made the right choice going on Suboxone because of the cost and the difficulty in getting off the drug. It is different though, before I would spend the day consumed with how I was going to get more pain pills, it was all I thought about. Now i can actually focus on other things. I don't get "high" off the Suboxone, it just makes things ok again. I take it each day in the morning and then I don't really think about it again until the next day. So I guess it is better.
Lately though I lost my job and have been forced to pay for Suboxone out of pocket. OMG it is ridiculous how much money it costs. I added up a year's worth of medicine and it came to like $9500!!!! I almost lost my mind. I have been having panic attacks every since thinking about how I am going to pay for that. But I decided to call around and I found that the price is very different at different pharmacies. CVS where I have been going is one of the most expensive, and at $9.xx (can't remeraber exactly) it was going to be about $25.50 a DAY. I found at Costco the price is $6.60 a pill (8mg), which is over a $5/day savings. Then I forced myself to go down to 2 pills/day, which brings it to approx $13/day. Still quite a bit, right?
But then I had an epiphany. I can just cost some other costs out and make it work. I HAVE to work it work. I can take my lunch each day and not get Starbucks each day, that alone adRAB up to it. I can cut out all but basic cable and get a pre-paid phone card instead of my iPhone ($60/month). I can cancel my home phone and use MagicJack instead (save $40/month). Long story short I can do it. It is a pain in the butt but I know my wife would rather me spend $13/day than to lie and steal and be consumed by pain pills and other things.
