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When I first joined this board, I was just beginning to withdraw from first Oxycodone and then Xanax through tapering. I had been on these type of drugs for over ten years and somewhere what had begun as pain treatment crossed a line into misuse, abuse and addiction. It was a long road off these drugs, but a road so worth walking, tripping and even sometimes sturabling along. In the summer of 2007, I finally became totally clean and clear of opiates and benzos.

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Reach,

Reading your post was SOOOO touching and gave me goosebumps the entire time! What you wrote is so very inspirational and I know that you have helped me and many many others!

There is nothing but the truth in what you wrote and I appreciate you writing what you did. Sometimes it's hard to hear the truth but it neeRAB to be said and thank you for being the one to say it!!!!!

You have so much knowledge and wisdom going thru your own journey! I appreciate you sharing what you do!

Many thanks to you Reach!
~Secrets
 
You should truly speak to people about this issue. You have a gift for worRAB. I found myself nodding at everything you said. When I decided to stop my abuse of pain meRAB, I went to my PCP. She gave me the tools I needed to quit. She could not have possible prepared me for the emotional withdrawl, and this board helped so much in that regard. For me, talking with people who had gone through this, was a HUGE part of my success. I went back to my dr. this morning, and she was so pleased and happy for me. She just hugged me and brought tears to my eyes.

I think it is imperative that we have support in all areas in this process. My husband and brother knew about my problem and were there for me every step of the way. I found that having all of that support, including these boarRAB, I still had to take control of my life and do this for ME!

I remeraber when I first logged on to here, I was such an emotional wreck. Everyone was so supportive, it was unbelievable. I felt like a thug and didn't think I had any reason to live. It got that bad for me. Remeraber that, Secrets??? I felt like such a failure, and probably said that many times. It takes time to feel better about yourself, but it does happen, and when it does, and you are able to forgive yourself, it is a beautiful thing.

Reach, I am sure you have touched many lives, I know you have mine. The day before I quit, you said some things to me that make he think, "I can do this." You gave me that final push that I needed. I will always be grateful to you for that. You will never know how grateful I am.

Secrets, you too, were a huge part in my process. Your kind worRAB and your ability to make me laugh, were just what I needed. I am indebted to you!!

Having my life back is priceless. I am enjoying every day now with a clear mind.
 
I totally agre with TaCot100% Reach, you SHOULD speak publicly about this issue of addiction.. However, I could understand if you didn't want to!

Yes, TaCot.. I do remeraber the times when you felt like such a failure and I remeraber while you were going thru that I felt like.. "she should feel the exact opposite because look what she is accomplishing.. she is getting her life back" It's funny though because I could look at you and KNOW that 100% but then there were times when I felt the exact same way about myself... It's funny the mental process we all go thru to become clean. It's mind blowing actually if I can be honest. The rollercoaster ride is one that I will surly NEVER forget and I am also thankful to have gone thru it with all you wonderful people. And.... I am glad I was able to make you laugh! Usually I am only making myself laugh!! hahahha The joke between my frienRAB is that NO ONE FINRAB ME FUNNIER THAN ME!!! hahhaa I just like to laugh I guess and I am glad you do too!

Sometimes when i am on here I wonder just how many people are out there lurking and reading our posts and I remeraber being a lurker.... I remeraber thinking.. "I wish I could have the courage to do what these people are doing" and then I remeraber finding the courage and I KNOW it's becuase of people posting and I really hope that if we all just keep posting... it will move more people to make the giant leap like it did for me.

Reach, keep talking because when you do...... it's priceless. Thank you for you!
~Secrets
 
granny0,

I have moved your post to a new thread:
"Clean but still craving"
so that your concerns can be given the full attention that they deserve.
 
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