i first started having mental issues late in senior year of high school due to too much work combined with my lazy attitude and falling behind because i got into a fight (it wasn't really a fight - more or less i got played out to be some kinda monster after i defended myself from this kid trying to bully me) and things at home causing me too much stress.
so i started feeling unreal and started cutting myself and ever since then i just seem to get worse and worse all the time (i don't know what wrong with me, at first i didn't know what it was, then i though maybe its depression, now i think i might be bipolar because i get very manic at times (probably for a few days once every few months when i least expect it) and lately i don't know what im feeling half of the time and when i do know what im feeling its like 2 completely opposite sides at the same time and i feel unstable, like im losing control of myself and need to cut to feel good and have something i can control)- it has only like 8 or 9 months ago but it feels like its been an eternity already, and the only help ive been getting so far is talking for a session once every other week, and it doesn't seem to really be helping yet.
so i started feeling unreal and started cutting myself and ever since then i just seem to get worse and worse all the time (i don't know what wrong with me, at first i didn't know what it was, then i though maybe its depression, now i think i might be bipolar because i get very manic at times (probably for a few days once every few months when i least expect it) and lately i don't know what im feeling half of the time and when i do know what im feeling its like 2 completely opposite sides at the same time and i feel unstable, like im losing control of myself and need to cut to feel good and have something i can control)- it has only like 8 or 9 months ago but it feels like its been an eternity already, and the only help ive been getting so far is talking for a session once every other week, and it doesn't seem to really be helping yet.