Is it because of my fear of abandonment and betrayal?
I dont believe good people really exist and if they do I wouldnt be able to befriend them. they are too cautious. My old friends either hurt me in some way or betrayed me. I had one friend abandon me and my ex husband got deported back to his country which was basically like an abandonment.
I am all alone now. No lover and No friends. I have no motivation to make friends, I feel I do not need them for the most part. I enjoy being alone. I miss having a husband/boyfriend more then anything though. But again I fear disloyalty and abandonment.
I dont believe good people really exist and if they do I wouldnt be able to befriend them. they are too cautious. My old friends either hurt me in some way or betrayed me. I had one friend abandon me and my ex husband got deported back to his country which was basically like an abandonment.
I am all alone now. No lover and No friends. I have no motivation to make friends, I feel I do not need them for the most part. I enjoy being alone. I miss having a husband/boyfriend more then anything though. But again I fear disloyalty and abandonment.