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cap_100
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This is hard to explain, but I hope there are some people out there that can understand or relate. First off, nothing bad happened in my childhood. I have had a couple girlfriends. But I was also hurt, in a way that was like I was lied to over it. Since then I can't seem to give myself to anyone anymore. I feel bad about it, because I know people will think I'm acting selfish or a crybaby about it. But they don't understand. Nobody does. Am I asexual? I've heard it all before. But I can't bring myself to trust again. Whenever I am with a girl or think about being with one, I just have that feeling that I will just get stabbed in the back sooner or later. I hate myself for feeling this way, but I can't help it. I love women, and I am attracted to them. However the problem is I feel like there is a strong magnet between me and another that tells me "NO"...If your confused...I'm just as confused as you are.