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Kenan P
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I am a 22 year old University student with a 3.3 GPA. I am always nice to people and have done everything to help others. I really have sacrificed my own enjoyment to help others. But people constantly keep judging me. I have a complex skin disorder in which my skin doesn't regenerate properly. Now it isn't that serious, but i break out in pustules easily from stress and not sleeping enough. When i do my skin becomes so inflamed that it is hard to go in public. For a long time i ignored it and went on with my life. But i can no longer do that because of others judging me. People constantly either call me names or say i am a crackhead who doesn't take care of himself. I don't even drink. I did pick up the nasty habit of smoking, but that is because of all the stress. I keep telling myself that if i just try harder at taking care of myself than things will get better. But they don't. This year i tried mynocycline the antibiotic for acne and skin problems, now while my acne went away i developed huge BLACK bags under my eyes. People constantly look at me like i am crackhead. I had to quit that and only now are my bags going away, but in the meantime i have developed even worse acne than before. i am fixing my sleep and will try to quit smoking, but i feel hopeless. Like it will not work, just like most of the things in my life. People either judge me or are disgusted by me, or they simply feel sorry for me. Worst of all i am an actor, and i think a pretty good one. I love acting more than anything in the world. There is nothing that i would rather do. I don't know what i would do if i had to give up that dream. But that is exactly what it feels like now, a dream and nothing more. I feel me being happy is also a dream. I'm sorry i keep rambling on guys, thanks for listening.