mass-__-disappointment
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I'm 18 (female) and ever since my last year of school and throughout my first year of university I have been getting these awful symptoms of depression as mid semester exams and tests approach. I get so stressed and time really flies by. I end up procrastinating and do poorly in my work. I'm so unhappy with what I'm doing. I don't know what I want and I feel so stupid. I'm more absent minded these day's and I tend to sleep in when I should be studying harder.
I don't have a casual job which makes me more angry. My mom thinks I don't know how to live my life because I don't like going to party's or generally go out and have fun when school is on. On my mid year break I actually forced myself to see a counselor. She didn't know why I got so emotional, she didn't care or help at the end of the day. I was okay on the holidays because I didn't have to think about school. I thought I was better but I feel like crap again.
What's going on with me. It wouldn't make sense if I actually did have depression. Am I just dumb? I feel like nothing.
I don't have a casual job which makes me more angry. My mom thinks I don't know how to live my life because I don't like going to party's or generally go out and have fun when school is on. On my mid year break I actually forced myself to see a counselor. She didn't know why I got so emotional, she didn't care or help at the end of the day. I was okay on the holidays because I didn't have to think about school. I thought I was better but I feel like crap again.
What's going on with me. It wouldn't make sense if I actually did have depression. Am I just dumb? I feel like nothing.